After The Pain II

Sweet Endings

It was around 9 and I could hear everyone else up in the house. Toni and I had been sleeping off and on.

"You know this week we would had found out the gender". Toni sighed. "I know baby". It was a awkward silence then Toni began to cry.

We never told anyone that Tone was pregnant so keeping the miscarriage to ourselves was difficult. We went to counseling but Toni still found a way to blame herself. So instead I decided it would be best until she was ready to talk.

Flashback

"Baby I'm hungry"! Toni yelled through the house. "Okay what do you want"? Kenny asked putting on some shoes. "A burger, fries,shake, apple pie and skittles". Toni squealed. "Okay baby". Kenny said kissing Toni.

Toni had been put on bed rest she was 3 weeks pregnant. Kenny had been taking care of everything while Toni relaxed.

Kenny returned home with Toni's food. All through the house you could hear her sobbing to God.

"Please no"! Toni kept screaming.

Kenny looked down and saw Toni sitting in a puddle of blood. He was devastated but he couldn't show it. He had to be strong for Toni. He ran her a warm bath and placed her in it. He picked up Toni's clothes put them in a plastic bag and threw them away.

Kenny returned upstairs to see Toni under the water. He quickly rushed to her. She stared at the wall blankly as she got her breathing under control.

End of Flashback

The doctor told us that Toni couldn't carrying a baby to full term. My heart began to race as I thought about last night. We didn't use any protection and I didn't pull out. I know this is selfish but I hope Toni isn't pregnant. She's going to be a total wreck if she goes through another miscarriage.

Toni

"Kenny are you okay"? "Uh yeah. Baby why would you ask me that"? Kenny asked nervously. "It's just seems like you have a lot on your mind". "No not at all I'm just loving this moment". Kenny spoke.

I should've brought up the baby. Kenny has been so strong in front of me but I always hear him crying when he takes showers. Lately I've been thinking about adoption but I don't know how Kenny would feel about it. Well I'll never know if I don't ask him.

"Baby I've been thinking about adopting a child".

"Toni we can't replace the child we lost. I want you to be happy but this isn't the best time. Especially right now it's only been 3 months". Kenny rubbed my back.

I quickly shot up and looked at Kenny confused.

"Just because I don't want to talk about the miscarriage doesn't mean I haven't accepted it. I always wanted four kids Ken."

"Well I haven't accepted it and I know you really haven't either. You can't keep doing out of mind out of sight bs." Ken spoke.

Kenny reached for me but I pulled away and headed for the bathroom.

"Go get dressed". I said to Kenny coming out of the bathroom.

He didn't argue with me or anything. He just did what he was told. We went downstairs.

"SURPRISE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY
KENNY!" Everyone yelled.

"Thanks!" Kenny yelled cheerfully.

Soon everyone had disappeared and went outside. I followed to see the backyard set up beautifully.