Here I am again. Wandering in this familiar place. This place where I have no idea why I am here. Nandito ako palagi. Pakiramdam ko alam na alam ko na ang lugar na ito. Facing the dark horizon, I can feel the strong and cool wind hitting my skin and I can't help but to feel nostalgic at the scene. Describing the place, it looks like I'm at the end of the world. I am standing on the cliff and only God knows how deep it is. I can see the ocean from my view. Wala akong makitang iba kundi ang lawak lang ng karagatan. I tried to look behind me but I can't. Something's keeping me from discovering the mistery on my back.
I looked above and saw the moon shining lamely. It's dark but enough to see the surroundings. The reflection of the moon on the water makes my mouth gaped in awe. The moon accompanied by the stars, the clear sky, a perfect thing I wish I could have. The only thing that makes my heart flutter and the only thing I could watch for the rest of my life. Nanlaki na lang bigla ang mga mata ko ng mapansin ko ang isang star sa nakapuwesto sa upperleft ng buwan ay unti-unting gumagalaw. I tried to clear my eyes to check if I'm not mistaken. The star slowly moved to my direction, giving me the terrified look on my face. I covered my eyes with my hands to prevent the light of star to completely made me blind. Nang malapit na yung star sakin, the light itself had ceased from shining. Instead, it's color changed from blinding yellow to light blue. I can't really understand what's happening right now. Unti-unting bumaba yung star papunta sakin. Habang papalapit, unti-unti itong lumiliit hanggang maging kasinglaki na lang ng kamao ko. And then it stopped 4-meters away from where I'm standing. I looked at it very intently to examine it.
This is crazy. I thought to myself while shaking my head in disbelief.
Tumagal pa ito ng mga 2 minutes sa harap ko which was made me more curious about it.
I tried to reach it with my left hand but it was out of my reach. I extended my arm more but I failed. I took a step forward and noticed that I am at the end of the cliff. I looked down and saw nothing. It's so dark down there at kung mahuhulog man ako ngayon paniguradong wala akong ligtas. I tried to reach the star once more with my very best, extending my arm more and taking a little step again.
Shit!
I cursed under my breath. Bakit ba hindi ko maabot? I took another step then there I was, yung kanina ko pa inaabot nasa kamay ko na. And by that, ang bilis na lang ng mga pangyayari. Hindi na pala ako nakaapak sa tinatayuan ko. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko ng mapansin kong nakalutang ako sa ibabaw ng malalim na bangin at natatanaw ko pa yung tinayuan ko kanina. Hawak-hawak ko pa rin yung maliwanag na bagay sa mga kamay ko. Ramdam ko pa yung init sa mga palad ko. What is this? Tanong ko sa sarili ko nang natitigan ko ng malapitan yung bagay na to. I felt the object getting hotter and hotter. Until the pain in my palm is unbearable. At lumalakas na yung liwanag na lumalabas dito. Ughh! Napapikit ako sa liwanag nito. Gamit ang kanang kamay ko, tinakpan ko ang mukha ko dahil painit na ng painit ang hawak ko. At dahil hindi ko na nakaya ang sobrang init bumitiw na ako sa maliwanag na bagay. And that was a wrong move. I gasped for air when I felt myself falling and that's when I realize na kaya pala ako nakalutang dahil nakahawak ako sa bagay na yon.
Someone help me! Help! Sigaw ko dahil parang magkakaroon na ako ng cardiac arrest sa mga pangyayari.
Pakiramdam ko ang lalim ng huhulugan ko. My body were stiffened. Heeeelllp! I tried again baka sakaling may makarinig sakin. Helllpp! Mom! Dad! And my tears started to fall. My heart was going to explode any seconds by now.
Suddenly, I felt someone gripped me on my waist causing me to choke on my own saliva. The impact was strong and my eyes were almost bulging on its sockets. My hands and feet were dropped low and whoever held me right now was on a perfect timing. I assumed it's a male because of his masculine touch. I looked down on his hands on my waist and saw his gold thick bracelet with cross sign carved in the center and small stars around the gold thing.
I exhaled in relief as I felt that we are flying up. Naririnig ko ang pagaspas ng pakpak niya and because of my curiosity I looked up to his face to see him but it was completely dark and the only light that shine that time was his bracelet.
We reach the top of the cliff and he put me down gently on the ground.
"Thank y--" I was about to thank him but he flew away as fast as lightning. "You" I breathed out.
I opened my eyes gently and rub it a several times. I'm always having that kind of dream. Paulit-ulit na lang. Simula nang nag 20 years old ako madalas ko nang napapanaginipan to. Weird. I put my hands on my face in despair. I swung myself on the side of the bed and get up lazily. I walked on the mirror and saw myself in a messy state. "Gross." I muttered. Noticing the gold neclace that hanging on my neck, I lifted my hands to reach for the pendant. It was a star. I got this necklace from my parents, before they died. Seven years old lang ako noon. They died on an accident, I was sent in foster home because we have no other relatives and later on Mr. and Mrs. Morgado adopted me. My foster family was hella rich. They have a lot of money but they don't have love. Hindi sila nagkaanak kasi never sila nagkaroon ng romantic feeling para sa isa't-isa.
Kailangan lang nila ng tagapagmana kaya nila ako inampon.
I never call them as mom or dad. Preferably, I only call them Mr. and Mrs. Morgado, which is kinda weird for a family. Okay, I guess we are not called as family. They were more of a business partners and I'm just a heiress they hired.
Too much painful to think that they raised me as a tiger, a cursing robot and self-centered bitch but I don't blame them for that. Instead, I should be thankful because people around me thinks that I'm scary, neurotic or narcissist. I'm enjoying it anyway. Scaring people is one of my best talent aside from sex.
I lift my gaze and stared at myself blankly on the mirror. Running my hands through my hair gently, I noticed something on it and that made my heart skipped a beat. No fucking way. I leaned closer to have a better look and blink a several times. This really creeps out the hell of me. Lifting my free hand, I reach for my hair and took the thing on it. Nanlaki yung mga mata ko nang mahawakan ko to. Jesus! I breathed. This ain't fucking real.
This soft and gold feather. The feather of the stranger on my dream. Holy Cow.
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