Addicted To A Memory

Chapter 9

Chase's POV

I left Natalie's room and walked back to my office. I fixed some papers in my messy table since I can't work properly when my eyes drift in the unorganized papers. Call me impulsive, but I just don't want an unorganized working desk.

As I work my ass off, my mind seems to drift to Natalie's big doe eyes when she saw my face after 7 years. Natalie and I used to be highschool sweethearts but when I finished highschool, I had to leave to study Medicine. I promised to come back for her after 7 years.

I can remember some criticizing looks we receive when Natalie and I were walking together since she is 3 years younger than me. Some people thought that we are too young to be together. But I never cared. I loved her.

My mind also drifted in the letter that I received years ago. Letter from Natalie's mom. When I read the letter, I didn't left the room for the whole 5 days. Jerry keeps on knocking on my room but I didn't open. By the sixth day, I opened the door, Jerry asked me and I opened up. I tried so hard to stop my tears but it won't stop. Call me gay, but once you lose someone you loved, everything just fall apart.

You might be wondering what is the content of the letter? Well I'll summarize it for all of you: Natalie don't love me anymore, she's with other man. Simple.

Anger from pain and betrayal inflicted to me flowed in my veins. I want to show her that she was not the only one capable of throwing a 6 year relationship. She was dead to me.

I dated Nina Jones just for fun. For sex, entertainment etc. Nina knows that I am not interested to her. She just want my dick and fame. But I don't care.

When she wrapped her arms to my body, I felt instant relief that she is here in my arms again. At the same time, doubt.
I doubt that she misses me. I doubt that she still loves me.

My mind is yelling for me to let her go while my heart disagrees with my mind.
And now I am here, sitting in my office, having a mental debate if I should go with what I feel or with what is logical.

But she had you replaced.

But now she's back.

We never know what is her intention. After all, 7 years surely did a change.

But maybe she's back because she still loves us.

Or maybe she's back because her boyfriend and she broke up. Or because she doesn't have money, that's why she's whoring around.

I gritted my teeth in anger. Now it all made sense. She's just want me to give her money.

Sorry to tell her but I am not the Chase Lanister she once knew.

A lone tear fell from my eye. The scars in my heart are reopening. Everything is coming back, but the woman I once called the love of my life is long gone.

She's only a girl in my memory.

This is the last time I'll pour my tears for the woman I once loved.