Addicted To A Memory

Chapter 16

Natalie's POV

"Natalie, what's taking you long?" Chase's annoyed voice interupted me from opening the letter. I quickly tucked the letter inside my pocket. I need to read it first.

"Uh, I am sorry Mr. Lanister, I am coming out." I rushed out. I can't afford getting caught by Chase. I'll be damn fired in the first day of my work if he found out that I invaded his privacy.

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When we entered the hospital, the scent of lavender instantly greeted my senses, giving me a homey feeling in the pit of my stomach. The walls are painted sky blue, cooling down the temperature of the building. The floor is so shiny that I stopped myself from sliding my flat shoes and embarrass myself. Female nurses are dressed in all blue uniform and same with the men. The doctors are wearing white coats, giving them the proffesional looks.

I feel so out of place with my yellow blouse, blue faded jeans and dirty white flat shoes.

People are greeting Chase, giving him respect for he owns this building. He is now talking to a brunette woman nurse and giving her instructions.

"Ms. Snow..." And we are back with the formalities "this is Cara and she will be guiding you in what you will be doing. I'll leave you two" and he walked away.

"Hello, Natalie" she gave me a genuine smile, lighting up the the place "Come follow me, I'll show you the locker room and your new uniform"

And that's how my job started.

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I collapsed in my bed and relaxed a bit. It was my first day as nurse and I feel like dying. The hospital is so busy. I also learned that I will be having my night shift next week until the end of the month.

Also, a bitch named Stephanie keeps on bitching me since she saw me entering the hospital with Chase. She also ordered me to keep my distance away from his boyfriend.

Like, wow.

Well I just ignored her like I used to do in highschool when Chase and I are still together. I don't want to stoop on her level since I am completely aware that I know better than her.

My mind ran through the things that happened this day. I still have no idea about the reason of Chase ignoring me and adressing me like there's nothing happened in the past.

I have no idea who has the problem, is it me or him? I suddenly realized that maybe, I am just seeing things. Maybe, until now, I am still holding on to the promise that he gave me when he left. Seven years did a really mess in both of us.

But the 'us' that I am talking about does not exist anymore.

The message is received, loud and clear. But I, myself doesn't want to believe in it. I am still holding on that promise, promise without certainity. And now, I am telling you, it hurts a lot.

It hurts that he left me. It hurts that he broke his promise. It hurts that he easily moved on after all that we've been through. It hurts that he found somebody new. And it fucking hurts so much that he can easily forget about me and live his life so freely.

He was the pole that I was holding on through the stormy nights. He was the light that I can see by the end of the tunnel. He was my everything.

But who am I to him? And that is where it all ends.