They just don't understand *Trigger warning*

Day 3

I wake up confused. I must have fallen asleep outside my mums room. I lay across the empty seats beside me and stare at the floor, I question my existence and whether this pain is worth it. But, I have to be strong otherwise who would be there for mum?  I see Gary walking towards me, but he's with two other people I have never seen before. As he walks closer I notice he has his hands behind his back. Oh My God. He's been arrested. What's he done? Is it serious? Anyone? I start to question the officers beside me.  Gary has his head down to avoid all eye contact "I'm sorry Alaska." What? What are you sorry for? Gary? But this time I don't even get a word. They walk past me. I want to run after him, but at the same time I don't. I start to think about what he could've done the only thing I can think about is the crash. If there's a God out there, please don't let this be true. How could he do this?  " I HATE HIM." I wasn't meant to shout this out, but it just slipped out. Do I really hate him? I don't even know what's true anymore. I walk out of the hospital and start to head home. (The hospital said they would call me if anything happened with mum so that eased my mind.) I opened the door to my house - dead silent. I close the door behind me and walk upstairs to my room. I put my phone on charge and go into the bathroom. I check myself in the mirror, I fix my hair and change my make-up from two days old to brand new fresh make-up. It makes me feel a little bit prettier, but nothing compared to how other people feel about themselves. I hear my phone buzzing loudly, I start to think who might be messaging me. Nobody does unless it's Jodie but that's only in emergencies and she would be at school so it can't be her. I check my lock screen and see it's a text from Jake. 

Quick note: Jake is the most popular guy at school and is in all the sports teams and is very intelligent but also he is VERY good looking and everybody wants him.

I will also be switching points of views from now on

Text message: Hey Alaska, It's Jake. Erin gave me your number from geography, I hope you don't mind I just wanted to ask if you wanted to hang out with me?

Alaska: You: Jake head of every sports team wants to hang out with depressed, freaky Alaska? These texts aren't funny any more Jake.

Jake: I'm not kidding Alaska, I want to hang out with you. You seem really cool. 

Alaska: Meet you tomorrow then? 

Jake: Sure I'll pick you up in my car. 

Oh my god. Jake wants to be my friend? He thinks I'm cool? This is amazing! I can't wait to tell Jodie about this! For once in my life I feel happy, something I haven't felt since dad died 8 years ago. I get changed into some new clothes and head to the flower shop. I buy mums favourite flowers and head to the hospital to deliver the flowers. I walk into my mums ward and put the flowers in her room, I don't want to stay long in case anything happens to her. I put my headphones on and listen to "Sun 41 - In too deep" (I know it's old, but it makes me smile) I walk into town and start to walk to Miles' friends house to discuss with his mum what we should do.