They just don't understand *Trigger warning*

Day 4

I wake up to a thousand of text messages, shared between Jodie and Jake. My mind is still in shock.. how in the world can Jake be wanting to hang out with freaky Alaska? He makes me so happy and I've never really noticed it until now. I check the time: 9:42 am. I jump out of bed and make my way to the bathroom. I put on the best makeup I can find and spend the longest time I have done ever on trying to look the least bit presentable for Jake. I go back into my room and decide to curl my hair - for the first time in forever i'm finally feeling happy with myself as a person. I get up and go to my wardrobe looking for something to wear that would make me seem attractive (Although I wont feel attractive I may be able to look it). I decide to go with a blue skater dress with some white trainers. The clock strikes 11 - it's almost time to go.

I checked my phone constantly waiting to be let down by him just like everyone else in the past has done to me - let me down. I go downstairs and grab my jacket on the way. I wait patiently by the window looking out for his white jeep to pull up in the driveway.

He's half an hour late. He's not coming. This was all a joke. I bet they're watching me right now - laughing, filming me. Why am I such an idiot?

I start to walk upstairs when there's a knock at the door. He's here.

"Hi Alaska.."

"Hey Jake.."

"You look beautiful by the way."

"Thank you." I blush and smile at the ground.

"Come on then, lets get going"

"Lead the way" I say with a massive smile.

We walk down the driveway to his jeep. He opens the door for me and smiles as I climb in. I've never noticed this before, but he has amazing blue eyes and his smile is to die for - Oh no.. I think I'm falling for him. We drive for about an hour when we arrive..in the middle of a field. He gets out of the drivers side and starts to walk over to my side where he opens the door for me and I hop out. He started walking off in the distance and finally sat on the grass against a big tree, gesturing for me to sit with him so I do.

"You don't have to hang out with me because you feel sorry for me by the way, I just thought you should know. It's okay if you leave me to go with your better friends."

He looks at me shaking his head almost laughing.

"I'm not giving you sympathy. I wouldn't waste my time on anyone."

"Fair enough I guess."

We talk for awhile, he tells me a lot about himself including why he moved to this area. I found out a lot about him I wasn't expecting. Maybe we have more in common than what meets the eye.

All of a sudden I can't stand up, I can't speak. All I feel is an intense amount of pain all over, like something is just squeezing me into this little ball. I can't breathe, I start to hyperventilate and I throw up.

He picks me up and starts running towards his jeep. I still can't move or breathe. He straps me into the car and starts driving back to my house. He's going double the speed limit and I can feel his hand on my leg and him telling me nothing will happen to me and that I will be okay. He pulls up in my driveway and runs to my side of the car. He lifts me up into his arms and searches the flowerpot for the spare key I mentioned to him before. He opens the door and kicks it shut behind him. I manage to find the energy to tell him my bedroom was the first on the left. He carries me to my room and places me in my bed. He sits next to me looking scared just staring at me.

I fall asleep.

JAKES P.O.V

I can't leave her like this. She scared me. I was so worried. I don't know what I would've done if someone worse happened. I'm just glad she's okay now.

I walk down the stairs to go make myself a drink when Alaska must've had one of her nightmares she was telling me about. Her piercing screams echoed through the house and ran straight through my ears and down my spine making me sprint up the stairs to her bedroom. She was kicking and screaming like she wanted to wake up, but couldn't shake the darkness which kept her chained to her fears. I shook her until her tearful eyes locked onto mine.

"It's me, It's me. Shh, shh. It's going to be okay." I say. Not really knowing what to do.

"The voices" she whispers just loud enough for me to hear.

"Please stay with me.." she cries just like a small child.

I crawl into her bed beside her and wrap my arms around her holding her so her head is in my chest.

"I'm here now." I say kissing her head.

"I don't like being alone." She says sadly.

"You will never be alone, I'm here to protect you from the voices and darkness. I'm not going anywhere."

I meant what I said. That two hour chat we had where we just explained our lives really meant a lot to me. I saw a different side to the girl everyone normally sees. I'm falling for her. Nobody must find this out. This is our secret.