All Ive Got/JALLY

is there somewhere

I fell asleep on his lap, his hand gently rubbing my head as my vision was fuzzy.

"Mornin johnnycake."

His voice was loud, but I didn't care, I wouldn't care if he was screaming, I only cared if he was there.

"Hey Johnny, what do ya want to do today"

I didn't answer.

"Come on johnnycake, you wanna go the movies and find some soc girls"

I wanted to say no, but I couldn't, I knew he would get mad, I don't want to make him mad.

"Sure, I guess, let me wake up first, man"

I wish I didn't say anything, I already saw the anger on his face, he didn't have much concern for people.

I watched Dal put on his jacket, every way he moved, how he brushed his white hair from his blue eyes. Sometimes I just wanted to grab his face and kiss him. But with someone like Dal it's not something to do.

We were walking outside and he was taking drags on his cigarette through sentences as he was talking to me about the Socs.

"They think they're all tough beatin you up and all, I thought they were over it, I don't wanna get into any trouble with them until after the rumble."

Dally was tough, not big, but you wouldn't wanna piss off a Greaser like Dally, he wouldn't hurt ya, he would just scare ya. He sure in heck scares me. But that's what I like about Dal, he scares me but I know he cares about me. Which makes me feel special because he don't care about anyone but himself, that's just how it is to ol Dally.

We reached the drive in and Dal helped me climb under the gate to get in, I my jacket got caught on the end and cut my shoulder.

"You alright johnnycake?"

I felt the blood under my jacket but I didn't want to stop Dal from doing what he wanted to do.

"Yeah, I'm alright."

I wasn't, at that time I felt weak, it seems like he cared but I knew he just wanted to get it over with.

"Hey why don't ya buy us some cokes over there"

Dally gave me a dollar and as I was walking I saw Dally already found a soc to pick on, my heart was pounding but I didn't know why.

I felt noxious, I felt like I was gonna pass out.

I ran back to Dally. He was teasing some soc girl while her boyfriend was screaming at him.

"Why don't you leave her alone?" I said to Dal almost falling on the ground but staying up from holding on to a chair.

"Excuse me?"

As Dally turned to look at me the soc girl ran away grabbing her boyfriends sleeve.

"Dal I think we outa go"

Dal saw I was feeling sick.

"You ok Johnny"

Then I remembered the blood coming
from my shoulder.

"Johnny are you bleeding?"

Dal touched the blood on my jacket.

The next thing I remember was I was sitting in the lot and Dal was smoking a cigarette next to me. My head was leaning on his shoulder.

"Johnny, you passed out, it couldn't of been from the cut you didn't bleed that much, what did you do?"

I didn't know.

I was trying to make something up.

I looked at him and he looked at me. Just for a second. But in that second I saw the fear in his eyes. I saw the tears building up.

I sat up next to him putting my hand on his shoulder.

"Dal you ok?"

"I'm fine" he said looking down.

I knew she wasn't.

He was never fine.

I didn't want to annoy him so I didn't ask again.

"Aren't the stars pretty, Johnny, they all blink at different times."

I stared at him.

"Since when do you care about the stars"

"Since I met you"

My eyes started to water as I felt goosebumps on my arms.

"What?" I said as my voice cracked.

"You're like a star, you don't stand out too much, but you do to me."

It didn't really make sense but I didn't care.

He would never say anything like that.

Dal out out his cigarette and lied down on the grass.

"You goin home johnnycake"

I was still shocked.

"D-do you want me to?"

"Its your decision"

I looked at him.

"Yeah, I will, ill see ya in the mornin"

"Alright see ya kid, Hey I wanna see you somewhere tomorrow, is there somewhere you can meet me?"

I looked back.

"Here."