All Ive Got/JALLY

5AM

I was leaning against a wall still awake as Dal was asleep on the couch. I felt confused. Why did Dally do that. Why did he go with it.

I pondered my thoughts all night as I stared at him while he slept.

He looked soft. He looked calm. He looked younger.

Dal wasn't soft or calm.

Probably because of everything that happened before he came to Oklahoma.

I went to look outside, it was about 5AM, the sun was about to rise.

"Oh glory" I heard Dally say.

"Why havnt you slept yet johnnycake"

"I'm not tired"

Dal got up and walked over to me on the porch.

"You wanna do somethin?" Dal said crossing his arms.

"What do you mean? Like what?"

"Nothin legal"

I was confused. I didn't know what to say.

Dal walked off the porch onto the grass and I followed.

Dal pulled out a cigarette and lit it as he was walking.

"Dal where are we goin"

"Anywhere"

I didn't like the tone in his voice. It was uneasy.

As we were walking I heard Dal humming Elvis again.

It made me happy. I was never happy.

I was lost.

You don't know who you love until you're lost.