Catfish: Two People Already in Love

Chapter 18

Louis POV 

I stare down at the girl in my arms in shock. She was raped. Some sick bastard raped this beautiful girl and left her in the dirt. I tremble with anger as Lauren sobs softly. 

"If I ever find that fucking bastard I'll kill him." I hiss. 

"Louis please just calm down. It's done." She whispers. "Please we've both had a fucking shitty day and I want to just go to sleep so it'll be over." I sigh and squeeze her tightly. 

"I'm here for you Lauren. I know we haven't gotten along the best but...." I sigh not knowing how to finish. "I don't know. I need someone to be there and so do you."

"I know." She whispers her sobbing has stopped and she yawns softly. I gently scoop her up and she squeaks softly. I chuckle as I carry her back to the bedroom. Slipping her under the covers I climb in next to her. I lay on my back and stare at the ceiling my thoughts empty of emotion. Lauren's soft snores fill my ears. I stiffen as she rolls over and tosses her arm across my waist before snuggling into my side. I stare down at her for a moment before placing my arm tenatively around her the other one behind my head as I watch her peaceful face.  I twirl a piece of her hair around my finger as my thoughts drift to Eleanor. I sigh my heart aching. Her mother had called me before I showed up here drunk. I can still hear her heartbroken crying voice. They were having El's body brought home for the funeral tomorrow. I had told her I wouldn't be there because I couldn't leave Edward. She understood and expressed how sorry she was and that she would come over to visit him as soon as she can. I sigh and close my eyes and try to go to sleep. I jolt awake by screams. I set up and Lauren is tossing around on the bed next to me. I reach over and shake her. Her screams continue and I grab both of her shoulders before shaking her gently. 

"Lauren! Lauren wake up! Wake up it's just a dream." I say worry filling me. Her eyes fly open and she sets up looking around looking around with frightened eyes. I take her face in my hands and stroke her cheeks with my thumbs ignoring the heat running through my hands. She stares at me her large blue eyes wide with fear. "Calm down. It's okay. I'm here. I won't let anyone hurt you." I whisper surprised at my confidence and the truth behind my words. She nods slowly and I pull her close. She hugs me burrying her face in my neck her breath against my skin sending chills down my spine. I hold her tightly until she calms down. I lay back bringing her with me her body laid across mine the babies kicking furiously against her stomach. She raises her head to look in my eyes. 

"Thank you Louis. I usually can never wake up from those on the occasions when I have them." She whispers. I smile satisfied that i could help her. 

"You're welcome kiddo." She rolls her eyes. I smile lightly. "What are they about?"

"That night that I was raped. I don't have them often but when I do they're bad." She whispers absently reaching up an playing with my hair. I stiffen and she pulls her hand away blushing. "sorry."

"It's ok. It doesn't bother me. It's just El used to do that sometimes." I whisper and she nods. 

"I won't do it again." she whispers. 

"No please. It's ok it calms me down." She nods and tenativly reaches up and starts playing with my hair again. I close my eyes and sigh. 

"I'm sorry Louis. It should have been me not El." She whispers. My eyes fly open and I stare at her in shock. 

"Please don't say that love." I say my heart racing when I call her love. "I was wrong. I loved El I did with all my heart, but everthing happens for a reason. If El had to go it was for a reason." She stares down at me her eyes full of emotion. I sigh and reach up stroking her cheek. 

"But I-"

"Please Lauren listen to me. El's death has to have reason behind it. I know that. We'll find out what it is at some point. Please just be here for me right now." I whisper. She nods silently and lays her head back on my shoulder. The babies continue to kick and I sigh rolling us onto our sides. She pulls back to look at me. "The babies." I say with a chuckle. She blushes and shoves her face back into my neck embarassed. I smile and yawn. "Let's go to sleep love." I whisper and my stomach flip flops. She nods against my neck and I close my eyes holding her close.

I feel something moving away from me and grin pulling her back to me. 

"El quit. Come back to bed." I whisper and she stiffens. I open my eyes and Lauren's blue eyes are wide her bottom lip sucked between her teeth. Everything from yesterday hits me like a ton of bricks and tears prick my eyes. They slide down my cheeks and Lauren gasps scooting back towards me. I pull her close and she wraps her arms around my neck. I cry silently as she strokes my hair soothingly. 

"Shh it's okay Louis. I'm here. I'll be here I promise. I'm not going anywhere." She whispers in my ear and my stomach flutters at her words. God what is wrong with me. My girlfriend just died. She holds me while I cry whispering comforting things in my ear. When my tears stop I keep hold of her and roll onto my back. She looks down at me worry filling her features. She has a little crease between her eyebrows and she has her lip sucked between her teeth. I reach up and smooth out the crease and she opens her mouth slightly. 

"Please stay with me today. I really don't want to be alone." I whisper and she nods.

"I'll be able to I'm on maternity leave until 2 months after the babies are born." She whispers and I nod. 

Lauren POV

My heart stops as he reaches up to my face again stroking my cheek. Lauren what are you doing. His girlfriend, your friend just died. You cannot. CANNOT have feelings for him! Can I? Is that even okay? 

"What are you thinking love?" he whispers and my heart flutters just like before. I look away embarassed and he lifts my chin so I look at him his thumb brushes my lip. I sigh lightly and raise my eyes to meet his. He leans forward and my eyes widen as he gets closer. His lips are centimeters from mine and he stops. "Please." He whispers. We stare at each other for a moment before he close the distance pressing his lips to mine. A fire ignites under my skin making my blood boil. I gasp and he deepens the kiss. I kiss him back completely forgetting the situation. We pull away gasping and we stare at each other in shock. 

"Louis what was that?" I whisper my mind full of confusion. 

"I don't know. I just - I just- I felt like I needed to. I needed you." He whispers. "I feel so different about you." He stutters. 

"But El just...."

"I know I know." He says laying his head back. I sigh and rest my head in the crook of his neck. 

"Louis what are we doing?" I whisper. "We barely know each other. Your girlfriend just.." I stop for a moment and he nods lightly. "I'm a pregnant freak and you are a world famous pop star."  

He scoots back slightly and rolls over to look into my tear filled eyes. 

"You aren't a freak love. You're a beautiful girl who had a terrible thing happen to her but has made the best of it and is going to be an amazing mother to her two children." he says cupping my cheek in his palm. I sigh lightly and he leans forward kissing me again lightly. He pulls back and rests his forehead against mine. 

"Louis I just ... I don't even know what to do anymore. My life is so fucked up now. What with my babies Kayle and Chey being sick. El... and now you..." I say looking away from him. He kisses my forehead sighing. 

"I know I know, but please just stay and be here with me." he whispers. "I'm not asking for anything I just need someone to help me forget. To help ease the pain. If it leads to more then we will see what happens then." He says making me look at him. I sigh but nod slowly. 

"Okay." I whisper and he smiles kissing me lightly.

"Thank you Love." he whispers against my lips. I sigh.

"I'm here." I whisper wondering what I was getting myself into.