Catfish: Two People Already in Love

Chapter 20

3 weeks later

Lauren POV

I watch silently as Louis yells at nothing and drinks continuously from the bottle of whiskey in his hand. My heart breaks as he yells for Eleanor. He screams and throws the bottle smashing it against the wall making me shriek. He is trembling with anger and slams his hand into the brick wall and I jump up backing away from him. I scream when he does it again and he whips around anger all over his features. His eyes widen as he takes in my terrified form. He takes a step towards me and I step back running into the wall fear gripping my heart. He stops and closes his eyes taking a deep breath. I watch silently as he walks towards me slowly his eyes never leaving mine. He gently takes my face in his hands. Kayle is hidden in her room as she always is when Louis goes on a rampage.

"I'm sorry Lauren. I didn't mean to scare you. I am a terrible drunk." He says with a dark laugh. I nod slowly. "Love please don't be scared of me." he whispers. "I miss her. I miss her so much." 

I reach up and wipe away the angry tears that slide down his cheeks.

"I know Lou. I know. I'm here for you though. I'll always be here." I say gently. He stares down at me like there is a battle waging inside of him. Suddenly he leans down and presses his lips to mine. His lips move against mine roughly and I gasp. This shouldn't be happening. El just died. I can't do this she loved him! But what if this is what was meant to happen. What If this is El telling me that Louis needs me. That I need to be there for him no matter what. I let my walls down and wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back with just as much force. He moans as I pull at the hair at the base of his neck. Reality hits me and I pull back leaning my head against the wall. He latches his lips to my neck and I try to straighten out my thoughts. "Louis. Louis sweetie you have to stop. Louis." I take his face between my hands and gently pull him away his eyes are wide and I stare at him stroking his cheeks with the pads of my thumbs. 

"I-I just I don't know I"

"Lou it's okay. Calm down. You just miss El. You miss her and you want someone to hold and be with. I don't want to be with someone who just wants me because they aren't used to being alone." i whisper. His face crumbles into a look of heartbreak. "Louis I will admit that I feel something here. When we touch or you kiss me my blood boils. I know we haven't known each other long but it's true, but I can't do this. I feel like we are betraying her somehow." I whisper and he nods resting his forehead against mine. 

"Love please. I just need someone."

"And I will be here Louis, but I can't do this. You can't just kiss me whenever you want. The past three days you've just kissed me out of the blue. It can't happen. I will always be here but please can you just wait until you have at least had time to grieve and find some closure for El. I'll be with you but i wont be with you."

"O-okay." he says taking a deep breath. He drops his hands from my face to step back but I grab his hand and he yelps. I look at his hand my eyes widening when I see his bloodied knuckles. 

"Louis." I sigh and pull him to the bathroom. I push him down onto the toilet and grab a rag. I wipe the blood off of his knuckles. He winces, but doesn't pull away. I ignore the heat in my fingers as I hold on to his hand but I ignore it. 

Louis POV

My heart pounds in my chest as Lauren wipes the blood from my injured hand. Her touch ignites my skin and I stare at her face as she concentrates. The crease is back in between her eyebrows and she has her lip sucked in between her teeth. I smile lightly as I watch her. She glances up and catches me staring. She blushes and quickly looks back to her task her hair falling in her face. With my other hand I reach up brushing her hair out of her eyes. Her eyes snap up locking on mine.