Everything changed when I knew I needed you (Ambreigns) *ON HIATUS*

Thoughts in the darkness - 12

They walked together heading to the sleeping quarters, they approached the door walking in they were not sure if they were early or late but everyone was in there it seemed. They quickly headed to the back of the building were their beds were. Roman saw Seth sitting on his bed next to his one, Seth looked up quickly seeing the four walk in but he looked away just as fast. Roman felt bad he didn't want Seth hating him but he mostly likely did.

Seth had been there for a while about 20 minutes just sitting on the bed wishing it was lights out already so he could disappear into the darkness and not have to deal with any of this. He was staring into nothingness wishing time would pass quicker. He felt awful he really did think Roman liked him, but like always he was wrong. It hurt, he wondered why was their a change in Romans feeling towards him.

Was he really that ugly without his longer hair he had looked at himself in the mirror in the bathroom he had to admit he was now not overly attractive but he was still him, Was he a player? Why was Dean better than he was? All these questions rushed though his mind. He looked up seeing Roman and the others, he looked away quickly not wanting to see them not wanting them to notice he had even looked up at all. He wished he could move beds.

The four headed to their beds sitting on them, Roman looked across at Dean who was opposite him wishing he was closer but this is how it had to be for now he knew the two of them were moving pretty quickly but he did not care. He smiled softly as he saw Dean smiling at him. Jimmy and Jey were talking and called to Dean for him to join in. Roman looked over at Seth he was not looking his way. The tall man from before came in the building and spoke "Lights out, you will be awaken in the morning" he turned the lights off and quickly left.

Roman lie there looking at the ceiling the room was pitch black, his legs were still heavy and sore from all the running earlier, the bed was nowhere near as comfortable as his bed at home. It was silent surprisingly he closed his eyes and thought about the day that he had been though. A heck of a lot had happened  he had been left here, met Dean and Seth, done a lot of running, had his hair ruined, got with Seth and fell for Dean so much was rushing around in his head. He wanted to just relax but he knew relaxing was not anything he would have the luxury of doing any time soon.

He started to think about Dean, of how everything had happened so quickly but he wasn't complaining at all. He was loving it, no one had made him feel this way, so much want and it felt so teasing that he couldn't do what he wanted with him. Dean didn't judge him and not like him with his new not so appealing look, he still wanted him. It felt unreal like a joke or a dream but he could tell by the way Dean was with him and the way he looked at him that this was the real thing those feeling meant something and Roman would do anything to not let anything ruin that, he wanted Dean to always want him. It felt silly as it had only been a day but it just felt right. He wished he was laying with him now just to be close to him.

Dean lie on his side looking out into the dark room he could not see anything. It felt so weird being here in this room in the darkness knowing he was not alone in his room back at the place he used to stay at. He could not call that place home, anything was better than being there he told himself even here. Then Roman was instantly in his head, yes it was definitely better here. He had meet him. He knew he didn't have to of told Roman how he felt about him today, but it felt right to. He wanted to tell him, he wanted to make him feel better as he knew he was feeling awful, he didn't want him to feel ugly.. Because Roman was far from ugly.

He also didn't want Seth getting closer to Roman as that would make his heart ache. It had all happened so fast but it all felt wonderful. He really had such strong feeling towards Roman, this had never happened.. He would like people before but that was more like a small crush but this.. It felt a hundred percent different.

He felt like he had to be with Roman, make him always feel better and happy when he needed it , tell him how perfect and beautiful he was, to hold his hand and to protect him the best he could. It felt as if they had known each other for years but it had been just this one day, it was a weird feeling. As he lay there he began to blush as he thought of all the wonderful things he and Roman could do together he tried not to chuckle as images came in his head. If only he was in a bed with him right now. He felt himself become hard and cursed himself 'darn it Dean why did you think about that..'. He reached down to touch himself wishing it was Romans hand.