awake ;; yoongi

track seventeen.

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"HELLO, YOONGI HYUNG?" Yoongi's eyes flashed open at the sound of Park Jimin's voice, and he distantly heard the sound of his front door opening. Yoongi slowly turned on his side, cold hands pushing himself off the bathroom floor. "Hyung, you should really turn on the lights."

More footsteps. The heavy ones of Jin and Namjoon, the quick ones of Hoseok, the mismatched ones of Taehyung and the hesitant ones of Jungkook, followed by an unfamiliar pair. Who are these people? he asked himself. My friends are dead. They've been dead for days.

"Yoongi hyung? Are you in here?"

Yoongi felt his breath hitch. Please don't come in, please don't come in. I don't think I could bear to see my dead friends.

The door to the bathroom opened slowly, and Yoongi felt tears collect in his eyes as Jimin's head poked through. "Hyung? Hyung, what are you doing?" The boy's small voice asked as he opened the door wider. Jimin shuffled closer towards his older brother, and Yoongi caught sight of Namjoon and Taehyung behind him.

Jimin crouched down in front of the boy, reaching out a hand to his friend. "Why are you on the floor, Yoongi hyung?"

"D-Don't touch me," Yoongi muttered, flinching back from Jimin's outstretched hand. He watched the hurt flash in his friend's eyes, but Yoongi couldn't bring himself to believe that Jimin was there and alive.

"No, please, it's me — Hyung, it's me, Jimin." The orange haired boy tried to reason, falling to his knees in front of his hyung. "See?" He grabbed Yoongi's hand, bringing it to his lips. "It's me." He said, pressing a small kiss to it.

"B-but..." Yoongi stuttered, his mind feeling foggy and the world around him seeming to turn ever so slowly. "I thought you were dead?"

"He's not, we're not." Taehyung came to crouch down in front of the peach haired boy as well, a small smile on his lips. "We're right here, just like we've always been."

Always.

"Oh — Hyung!"

Yoongi felt his smile drop as he locked eyes with Jungkook. Yoongi didn't know that his mind was playing tricks on him, but as he stared at the maknae, all he could see was the taunting little smile from his dream. "Get away from me." He hissed at the boy, scooting closer towards the bathtub and pulling the 95 liners there with him. "Get away!"

Had this been under different circumstances, Yoongi might have felt sorry for Jungkook. The younger looked at him with such unmasked pain in his eyes, mouth agape but looking so lost as to what he could possibly say.

"Jungkook." Namjoon spoke for the first time, pulling the boy away from the scene. "Not now." He said. The leader gave the two boys in front of Yoongi a look, before disappearing with the crying maknae.

"Hyung?" Jimin asked in a gentle voice, stroking Yoongi's hair. "Why did you make Jungkook leave?"

"Because he killed you."

Jimin was at a loss for words as he slowly pulled his hand away. At that moment, Hyejin also came into view, a worried look on her face. "Yoongi!" She said, slowly walking towards him. "What are you doing here? Why'd you tell Jungkook-ssi to leave?"

"He was going to hurt you!" Yoongi cried, tears threatening to fall. "He would've hurt all of you! I saw it! I saw what he would do to you! Please, please believe me. I don't want to see you all dead again. I can't take it - even the memory of it makes me feel numb."

There was silence in the bathroom, but Yoongi knew what he heard. The loud sob that could only belong to Jungkook, echoing from the kitchen. "Please — Please I wouldn't! Namjoon, please let me tell him!" Everyone could hear Jungkook's cries, but their eyes remained on the expressionless Yoongi.

"Don't trust him." Yoongi whispered. "He will hurt you. Please, please I don't want to feel numb again –"

Hyejin carefully put her hands on his cheeks, wiping a stray tear with her thumb "Then feel again." She said softly, before kissing Yoongi gently. Yoongi (as well as everyone else) felt his eyes widen, and he remained like that until Hyejin pulled away.

She smiled again, but this time it looked sad. "You didn't kiss me back. You must really not feel anything, huh?"

And just like that, she got up and left.

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mianhae

also when look says "oh hyung!" i aways hear it like when he said "oh- tae!" when taehyung blew out the bday candle and just wow

see u next thursday - three chapters left!

- kat