Lost Love In Tokyo Part 1

Chapter 7: Choices

I can't believe that I had to find out that I had to see him be a lying boy. Now I feel stupid. After all we have been through he never felt the same way I ever did.
Lucas pulls up in the driveway. I take my luggage to the trunk.
"Think about what you're doing to us..to our relationship. I'm really sorry that I didn't tell you about her but I didn't have any choice." He explains.
"You had a choice,you could've loved her like I do. But, you think since y'all have been friends forever you can use her. Wow, I finally see that you're a asshole." Lucas says without holding back. I look at Xander feeling like a failure and I leave. What was the point of even trying to deal with him. He never liked me, I understand that.
"I'm sorry. You didn't need that in you're life. I wish I could've done something different when we were together but I didn't." He says. I feel like he thinks I still hate him when I really just needed time to think things through. Lucas has always been in my mind and heart but I never acknowledged it. So when I saw him again, I felt like it was just me and him...I feel different about him. He makes me laugh and supports me. But even though Xander and Lucas both cheated on me, I feel like I still have a feeling that I can't control. "Maybe it was for the best that I knew know than later. And Lucas, it's not your fault. You will always be my 1st and I love you for it. Just take me to your place for a while." I answered.

*10 minutes later*
I feel like crying and just sick to my stomach. I bet this was God's way of telling me I need to start thinking about my life. But I know my life will never be normal and it will never give me a chance to be a regular teenager.
"Ananias,can we talk?"
"Um..sure but I'm trying to unpack so can we make it fast?"
"I really like you.. And I can't keep you off my mind. I know Xander just broke your heart but I need to ask you this one thing."
"Ok what is it?"
" I need you with me forever, if I can't have you then I'll die for you. I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry and that I need to make it up to you by doing something I should've done 6 months ago."
He kneels down on one knee and a beautiful 24 karat ring is in front of me.
"Ananias will you please give me the honor to be my future wife?"

I have no clue what to do! It feels right but it's so wrong. What about my college? What about Xander? What about Lizzie? I can't say yes or no. It would be mean to say either one. I take the ring to look at it then I gave it back. "Don't you understand that Xander and I have just broken up? I can't say yes or no but I have to think about it.
My day gets better...Xander delivers a text to me saying:
"Please forgive me for my dishonesty. I wanted to tell you soon but I was afraid that you would leave me. I miss you, I need you. So that's why I'm asking you to marry me because I love you and because I'm joining the academy of bricks-ford in Japan. Please call me or text me or visit my at the dorm."
WHAT!!! The academy is so far away but he loves that school. And another thing is, how ironic that two guys I care about the most ask me to marry them. Don't they understand that I am 17? I have dreams to be a guitar player for someone famous or maybe even travel the world. What do I do? Lucas is amazing but he cheated on me with a model, while Xander is a person I knew from 2nd grade but he cheated on me with a slut. They are both really cute,smart,and loving... I have to make them beg for my blessing to marry them.

This is going to be fun....