Lost Love In Tokyo Part 1

Part 12: Confessions.

We had secrets but I didn't think it would happen like this. Me and Xander haven't talked since being held hostage by a man I was going to marry. Everything just happens so fast, that we can't even keep up. Between me and my life ,and Xander with him going away, I feel like we're never gonna make it. Ever.

Lizzie came by to ask how I was holding up. For the past few weeks I've had nightmares about Lucas. He's a backstabbing creep who will never be in my life again. I loved Lucas. How could he do such a thing to me? And to Xander?! Xander only cared about me. Is this what it feels like? Is this how your heart feels when you're wrong about something or someone? I don't even know anymore.
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Staring at the tv watching boy meets world, I start to cry. Tears of hurt, pain, sorrow, and love came over me like a flash of light. Lizzie tried making me feel better but she didn't.

"I know you're upset about Xander but just call him. I'm sure he'll wanna talk." Lizzie suggests.

"I can't. He's leaving soon. I might as well give up. Besides, I didn't trust him whatsoever. I just trusted Lucas. How could I be a fool?" I explain while wiping my tears.

"That's it! Get up. Right now." Lizzie yells with a twitching eye.

"What are you-" I was interrupted by her finger.

As she interrupted me, she takes my hand and leads me to her car. She drives me to a place that I used to remember I guess. Then, Xander's home.
I get out to walk on his door step but only to see that it was unlocked. When I looked inside, every single memoir, every single time we ever talked or anything was on his walls. In the kitchen, he stands with a bouquet of roses and white wine. Part of me laughs and then begins to tear up again.

"Xander, I don't know what to do. I...." I said.

"Yes?" He asks.

"I miss you. A lot. I'm so sorry that I have been such an idiot. I know you must hate me but I am really sorry." I apologized.

"I don't hate you. I was hurt you didn't believe me. But you're here now. Right?" Xander explains.

"Yeah. You're leaving aren't you? For the school?" I ask with sobbing.

"No. I can't leave you. No matter how much you think I have to go, I'm not going.." Xander says.

"Why not? What's the point? We can't just relive the past. You're moving on with your life and I'm here. In Tokyo thinking about the biggest mistake ever. It seems like everything happened too fast for a reason. I think we should settle down.." I confessed pretending to be strong.

What Xander didn't know as months went by was that I was pregnant with his child. I mean, I know it's his because I was having symptoms the last time me and Xander spoke or made love to each other.

I couldn't tell him because I didn't want to make him feel like he had to stay with me, the baby. I just want him happy again, happy with me.

"What's wrong?" Xander ask caressing my face.

"Nothing! Nothing is wrong! You can just go and leave. I'm sorry Xander but this is my time to take care of me and myself. You can do what you want, I'm leaving." I answered furiously.

"Where do you think you're going!? Tell me what's going on! I know you." He says grabbing my arm.

"Let......go........" I say as I'm collapsing down to the cold tile in his home. After that everything just went.. dark."

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Lizzie's pov
I can't let Ananias go like this. If she doesn't tell him I will.
I see Xander sitting in the hospital waiting room with his hands on his head. He seemed more tense then usual.

"What did you do?" I ask him anxiously.

"Nothing. She just seemed so- upset and confused. I've never ever seen her like this before." Xander confessed.

"Me neither..." I agreed nervously.

"What's been happening to her, since the hostage situation?" Xander asked concerned.

"To be honest, she's been having nightmares. She won't tell me what's wrong but I can see it in her eyes that she needs help." I confessed.

"I knew it! That's what she's been hiding from me." Xander says.

"Actually it's not.." I respond standing up.

"Then what is it, Lizzie?" Xander asking getting up.

"Xander, she would've not wanted you to know but, Ananias is pregnant, with your child." I answered.

There was silence. Long silence.

"And she didn't tell me?" Xander says crying.

"I'm sorry." I apologize.

As he's wiping away his half happy/half sad tears away, the doctor comes out with a clip board and he looks concerned but then turns happy.

"Are you the partner of Ananias?" The doctor says.

"Yes I am." Xander says.

"Well good news, she is stable and she does seem to be stressed out. But also, we ran some tests and it seems likes she's 1 month pregnant. Bad new? Her heart isn't pumping enough blood to function." The doctor says.

"What does that mean?" I ask worried.

"It means that if she doesn't have surgery, she will lose her child or lose her life.."

Everything has changed.