I think I might finally be over him. Yay!
I've been trying to get over him for months now. Now when I look at him all I see is a hot guy. Which is what happens when I look at anyone remotely attractive.
For the past two days every time I saw Levi or Kai in class or past them in the halls I discreetly walked the other way or looked down and sped up.
Now it's thursday and we have gym together for the second time this week. Ms. Lee puts me on a team with both of them (Not good at all)
They are sitting within 3 feet of me and I'm trying my best to ignore them. We all walk out onto the fields and are told to start playing flag-football. Now normally both Kai and Levi are the kind of guys that run right in and play offence, not hang back. So when we start and they run back to defence where I am. I know I'm in trouble.
"Hey Aria," Levi said.
"Hey," I replied.
Kai looks up, " You used to stare at me and now when either one of us passes you in the hall you look down and run. Why," He asks.
"Ummm.....I don't know," I mumbled innocently.
Levi spoke up again, "Ya we had a conversation about her staring at us on monday," He said this as he was looking at Kai and apparently He is so all-consuming and I ran fast enough to make it a quarter way up the field before they noticed I was gone.
"Hey, we were talking," Kai yelled. I pretended not to hear him.
Later I shockingly caught the ball and made it to the end zone. (Yay me!!)
Later I had Advisory. Damian decided to make fun of me...again.
I mean I know I'm not hot but does he really have to treat me like this. Social Studies was fine I already finished the work.
I have to walk home it's the second time ever because my mom accidentally over scheduled. I go out the front doors after volleyball. Neither Kai or Levi were there So that's good. As I step out I see Levi and Kai talking to Vanessa, Levi's girlfriend. He kisses her in the cheek. Kai looks like he wants to shoot her. I giggle and walk around the bus circle. I know people are behind me because I here them walking and talking but I can't decipher their voices to tell if I know them or not. I don't turn back and look because there are tears rolling down my face. I have my headphones on and really loud now so I could be balling and sniffing a lot and not know. So they probably know I'm crying but I don't care I feel like dying in a way I haven't since 6th grade. I stop and turn around the people behind me have to be gone by now. Nobody ever walks this way. I turn around. Two people are still there. Guess who, Levi and Kai. I'm guessing they were following me because I've seen them walk home and they live in the opposite direction.
I stopped for just a second to comprehend what was happening then when it went all the way through my brain so I turned and ran as fast as I could(which was pretty fast when I tried) towards my house. But sadly it was record breaking sprinter chasing me so by the time I turn the corner to my block he has caught me by the wrist. Levi is at least 100 meters behind. I'm still crying and struggling to breathe because running+crying= no oxygen
Kai still has his hand gripped tightly on my wrist as if he is afraid I'll run away again. Then slowly he lets go and pulls me into his arms. At first I'm so stiff you could walk me like a plank but then after a few all consuming sobs I collapse in his arms. By then Levi has gotten to us. At some point we had started walking again and even though I wasn't making any noise tears were dripping down my cheeks. Then I pointed to my house as we passed it so we turned up the walk and sat down on the highest step.
Someone finally said something, it was Kai who was still holding me,"What's wrong?"
At least he had the decency not to ask if I was okay. I've finally stopped crying I think I ran out of tears. I sniff and say as innocent as possible,"Nothing important."
"Obviously it's important if you're crying about it,"Levi said gently. He was sitting on the other side of me. So I was sandwiched between to hunks of hot. I laughed out loud at the thought. Oops! They looked at me really funny.
"Sorry I just thought of something funny. And no it's not important not to you two and it shouldn't be to me I just need to build a bridge and get over it."
"My guess is that's how you go through life isn't it?" Kai asks.
"Ya maybe"
"That's not always a good thing," Levi interject.
"That's what my therapist said but it's the easiest way to go through life, for me," I say solemnly, "I was just being bullied in a way I haven't been since my old school and I was being a wuss about it. So let's just forget it," I finish.
"Fine but just this time if it happens again we're going to have to kick some asses," Kai says like we're already best friends.
"I know your guy's secret," I say with a delighted smirk. Completely forgetting what happened.
They looked at each other then Levi asks,"What secret?"
"You know the one nobody's supposed to know," I say with mysteriousness back.
"You are lying we don't have a big secret," Kai argues.
"Yes you do," I reply.
"If you know it then tell us what you think," Kai says fierce with the idea that somebody would tell everyone and then reject them.
"Don't worry, I won't tell anyone," I say sincerely.
