Secrets

I'm Going To Die

I dragged my freezing finger tips across the letters engraved on my arm. What do these words mean? Their not in English maybe Spanish No, um Latin possibly? I grabbed Connor's hoodie off the ground slipping it making my way downstairs. I finally made it to the kitchen one baby step at a time. Everyone stopped doing what they were doing and looked at me.

I scratched my arm. Connor came up to me pulling me into a bear hug.

"I'm glad your alive! Does anything hurt head, legs, arms, back?" he said scanning my body.

"I have a head ache and I'm cold." I said hugging myself. God people needs to turn up the heat! Connor frowned raising a hand to my forehead.

"Your freezing!" No? really! He picked up the blanket off the couch wrapping it around me. I looked around the room Alex was on the laptop. Rose was probably with Jasmine and bimbo I'm guessing went home.

I sat on the couch pulling the blanket around me. I looked at the staircase and that thing was standing there. No! No! I slide of the couch struggling to get away.

"Hey hey what's wrong?" I felt someone touch my arm. No! It's going to kill me!

"No! You're going to kill me!" I screamed. I feel like I'm in a scary movie! I looked at the staircase and it was gone. I stopped struggling and laid flat on my back. I give up! I banged my head on the wooden floor but that only made my headache worse.

I lifted up the sleeve and scratched the writing in my arm. Alex's arm stopped my hand taking a look at my arm

Shit!

"Where did you get this!" He said in a harsh tone. I really don't know where I got it! Gosh!

"Um I don't know? I woke up with it on my arm. Its really hurts, itches, and I'm freezing!"

"Hm...I wonder whats theses words mean?" Me to I mean your not the one with it in your arm. Connor stood up and grabbed his laptop off the counter and sat down. He pulled me into his lap setting the laptop in my lap. He typed the words in the search bar.

Animus miser

Animus miser meaning evil sprits in Latin. Latin was spoke in the 6th through 9th centuries. Latin was spoken in Portugal, Spain, Andorra, Italy, San Marino, Monaco, France, Belgium, Switzerland, Romania, and Moldova. Add to that the Vatican, where Latin itself still rules. But in most countries it's considered a dead language.

People in the 6th century had sights of an evil spirt. They believed the evil spirt looked like a female, all dressed in black.

I started trembling is that what I'm seeing. Connor sensed something was wrong because he put the laptop down and tighten his grip around me rocking me back and forth. I'm going to die; it's going to kill me. I know I'm usually strong in theses situations with being abused, being tortured, being starved this should seem like a normal day. Something snapped inside of me. I never let anyone past my walls but I got careless and let my guard down now my 'brother' is back. I can't tell if this thing is some how his doing. All the emotions I bottled up from years broke and they came in like a dam broke. Tears ran down my face I quietly sobbed in the crook of Connor's neck. This is the end of the line for me I can feel it. I always have an idea or whats is going to happen next but this time I have nothing. My mind is complete blank and I hate it. My tears began to lighten up because I have no more tears. I haven't cried this much in awhile last time I think was my 'mothers' death. My 'brother' was right he was going to break me some how some way. Just when I thought I had no more tears I began crying yet again.

Why does this have to happen to me? All I ever wanted was a caring father and a loving mother but I guess that's what makes life so hard. You never get what you want no matter how hard you beg, no matter how hard you plead, and no matter how hard you cry it's just not enough. No matter how hard you try but in the end it's just not enough. I have know idea of what to do! I just want to simply give up!

Give up on life!

Give up on trying!

I cried myself to sleep in Connors arms. Frankly I didn't want to go to sleep because I have a feeling that thing is going to haunt me in my sleep.

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I woke up screaming. That thing was in my dreams just like I predicted! I was in Connor bed with him. He turned on the the light right next to the bed.

"It's just a dream." He cooed in my ear holding me in his arms. I looked at the door and that thing was standing there watching us. I whimpered barring myself in Connor's arms. I cried just like last night. I'm going to die its going to kill me in my sleep I know it!

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked making small circles on my back. I shook my head. I feel like a little girl again shaking and crying. I'm no longer an 18 year older I'm a 7 year older trying to hold on to the last light of hope I have left.

"How about we go to sleep?" No! I'm gonna die! I shook my head clinging on to Connor's shirt. I looked at the door and that thing was closer than it was last time. Yep goodbye life! Connor started singing Make you feel my Love by Adele in my ear. He had such a beautiful voice. I felt my eyelids getting heaver by every word he sung.

🎶When the rain is blowing in your face

And the whole world is on your case

I could offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear

And there is no one there to dry your tears

I could hold you for a million years

To make you feel my love🎶

I drifted off to sleep in Connor's arms. This time feeling safe and secure.

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Ok I am really happy with this chapter! I like how it turned out!!! Yay!!!! Also about the Latin history it might not be all correct it could be false information but sorry!!!! thank you for all the reads!!!!!!!! You guys make my day!!!!

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