Apology ? [ Short Stories √]

Promiscuous

"If grass can grow through cement, love can find you at every time in your life. "

Love? It has no meaning for me! It is just a decent way to ask someone to have sex with you.

Well, that's what I thought.

"Love is a universal migraine.
A bright stain on the vision
Blotting out reason. "

It made her impractical, pathetic, depressed and what not.

It made her weak, weak for me.

I was her weakness and I knew that.

Present tense, I am still her weakness and I know I will always be.

After being in relationships with about 24 girls and getting betrayed, what do you expect me? Will you still expect me to believe in this shit? Let's be practical, love gets us nowhere, it's just a diversion.

Just a diversion, for me.

I thought I had made it clear to her that I don't believe in it, not anymore. I did what I always do, flirt.

I flirted with her, I had to. That's my way to keep boredom away. It's hard for me to admit it that I do feel lonely, sad, depressed. But I got an image to maintain, a reputation to keep. Even though nobody gives a fuck about me, but they do talk about me. I don't want people to say that I was a fool to fall in love, or I was fooled to fall in love.

I kept on texting her, day in and day out. From morning to night. We talked about my past, my present and my future. All we talked about was me. Just me, I am a self-centered person to be honest, I love talking about myself. But most of all I like talking about my past and how pathetic I was. It wasn't my fault that love made me pathetic, weak.

Slowly and slowly, she fell in love with me. Fell in love with my insecurities. Fell in love with my problems. Fell in love with everything I was.

I warned her before, she didn't take my advice.

I was no good for her.

How can someone fall in love with someone they have never met before? Is she crazy? Doesn't she know that I am present for her only virtually?

She was naive. She believed she could have true love in what we call is kalyug! Duh! She got obsessed with me, she goes paranoid when I don't tex her. All she wants is be with me.

She loves me, she truly does.

But I'm not gonna fall off again, not now or later. Never! Yeah, I can have one night stands, no problem. I know how to control my emotions but love?? It's beyond dangerous.

She still loves me after all the things I did to her. I talked dirty. Real dirty.

But I couldn't lose her, never. Because she satisfies my ego.

Yes, I am selfish. I made her fall in love with me without the intention of loving her back. I made her hope that I would feel for her. I told her I would meet her. I told her how I would kiss her passionately. I told her lies.

I made fake promises.

Promiscuous, her friends tell me. Flirt, her cousins tell me.

I just wanted to have fun, was it my fault?

I was betrayed time and again, was it my fault?

People misunderstood me, was it my fault?

Even if it wasn't my fault, I apologize just to keep her by my side,to satisfy my ego.

She still loves me now, I know she always will. It feels safe to know that there is someone who will love you no matter what.

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