Today is my first day back at school since being in the hospital. I'm kind of nervous. I'm wasn't really sure what the others will think but I mean its not like they would really notice that I wasn't there.When I got to school I didn't want to get out of the car. It felt like my body was numb and I couldn't feel anything, then I felt a hand on mine. " Ready" I didn't say anything. " I don't know if I can do these." " Ally everything is going to being okay. I right here." I took a deep breath and the decided to get out the car. I mean I knew that I couldn't sit in the car forever eventually I have to move.
Walking in to school it felt normal as usually. People were looking but they always looked. I started to feel relax because it see like nothing had changed at school and it looked like no one knew what was going. "Okay I'm going to go my locker really quick. I will be right back" Dylan said. I nodded. I went to my locker and opened it and out poured a bunch of band aids. I started hear everyone laughing and pointing.
" Looks like you didn't kill yourself. Well everyone thought including me that you needed these giving your situation that you are. I mean I don't think you would want to get blood all over your clothes." I felt like everything was getting small around me. More people joined in with Zoey and I could just feel like it was all going to blow up and I need to get out of there. "Ally, "Ally" I could hear Dylan yelling but I just kept running to one of the side doors then ran in to the forest that was next to the school. As I was running when it started raining more like pouring and I was slipping on the mud.
Finally I just stopped and stood there in the middle of the forest and let the rain fall on me. I was crying and it was like the mother nature was crying with me. ' Ally, Ally Ally" I could hear Dylan shouting my name but I didn't say anything. "Ally" he said again but this time he was closer actually right behind me. He put his hand on my shoulder. "Its okay" he said and that set me off. " Dylan shut up! It not okay its never going to be okay. It doesn't matter I'm never going to be okay. Even if one day they decide to stop the damage is already there. I mean I didn't think that when I came back everything would be changed but for them do that it just reminds me of the hell I dealt with.It just relights the fire of me wanting to kill myself. I know I got help but lets face the endgame is going to be with me killing being myself." Dylan didn't say anything he was just quite.
I was catching my breath and wiping the tears and rain out of my face. " You know what Ally, all I have done since I walked in on you attempting to kill yourself is help you. I have been there for you and you're going to stand here and say that nothing matters and that you just want to go off and kill yourself." I didn't say anything. I was shocked by the anger that he was showing. " I know others have walked away from you but that was because they didn't care. Your parents and family love you and I love you and we will be by your side. So when you kill yourself reminded that it doesn't just effect you it effects everyone around you. I was shocked at what I just hear and had to process it but then Dylan spoke again.
" Look Ally I understand that its going to hard for you. Everyday, every minute is going to be hard for you but I will be there every step. The endgame isn't going to be you killing yourself, the endgame is going to be you and me going through life right by each other side." When he finished all I could do was look at him. He looked at me and when I didn't say anything Dylan just shook his head and started walking but he didn't get far. " You and me?" I shouted . He stopped turned and looked at me "You and me" We just looked at each other for a minute then I took off running but this time instead of running away from Dylan I ran towards him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and in the pouring rain I kissed him.
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Short Story"It was like any other night, my parents went to bed earlier and I stayed up. I did the same routine every night mostly. I close and lock my door, get my pencil sharpener out and unscrew it to get to the blade. Then I would sit on my bed and take...
