Beneath The Lights // JN Fanfic

Chapter 19

Chapter 19 |
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The next day...

I wake up with throbbing eyes. I can barely see because my eyes are basically swelled shut because of how much I was crying last night. I uncover myself and realize I'm still in my dress. I sigh thinking about last night.

I thought Billy was the one. I thought our date was going to be perfect. I thought we'd fall in love and he'd ask me to the dance and then at the dance we'd kiss and live happily ever after. I thought wrong. I've never felt more used in my entire life. Billy's such a good actor because deep down inside I had this burning feeling that he really liked me. But he never did.

I walk into my bathroom and look in the mirror. Tears start flooding down my face. Jace is a great actor. I trusted him with my secret place and he what'd he do? He took advantage of me. He brought my worst enemy to my favorite place and sucked her face off. He promised me he'd never tell anyone and right now, I desperately want to hate him, but I can't. I love him. I realized yesterday after my date with Billy ended so badly that I was in love with him. I'm a complete sucker for the way he smiles, the way he laughs and the way his big brown eyes sparkle.

I take off the dress and put it nicely back into the box it came in. I get in the shower and the warm water washes away my tears.

What's so stupid is that I'm just now realizing my love for Jace. Billy blinded me for my whole life and I've been missing out on everything. I claim I'm the smartest person in school when I didn't even realize the love my life was right in front of my face.

But then again, he's not the love of my life. The love of my life wouldn't break a promise I trusted him with. The love of my life would've answered the phone yesterday when I was in tears.

I get out of the shower and put on a black sweatsuit. I'm done with dressing differently. I'm going back to the way I was. I liked it better when I didn't have friends and when Billy didn't know I existed. I put my hair in a messy ponytail and put on my glasses. My eyes are still red from crying. I could care less.

I grab my bookbag and phone and walk out of the house. I don't say bye to my mom. I don't even hug my dad after he's been gone for a week on a business trip. I don't eat breakfast. I don't do anything. I'm to angry to do anything. If I wasn't so pressed on keeping my perfect attendance record, I'd skip school and I'd go get drunk. I've never been this pissed in my entire life.

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•AT SCHOOL•

I walk into school and go straight to the third floor. I go to my locker and grab everything I need for first period. I close my locker and I see Mindy. My eyes start to well up with tears at the sight of her face. Just last night she was sitting on my rock kissing my best friend. I hate her guts.

I stare at her with a smug look on my face. She looks in my direction and I don't look away. I stare at her looking her up and down, trying to figure out why Jace chose her over me.

She snaps her fingers and walks over to me with her possy following close behind. She glares at me.

"Take a picture it'll last longer." She says rolling her eyes.

"Why would I want to take a picture of trash?" I spat.

Her possy gasps and Mindy laughs. "Who do you think you are talking to ME like that?"

"I'm Samantha Johnson and I can talk to whoever I want, however I want." I cross my arms.

I'm tired of her thinking that she can just boss me around. I don't care about anything anymore. I'm gonna stand up for myself. People who never do anything never become anything. I wanna be someone.

Mindy scoffs. She leans in and whispers in my ear; "Yeah and me and Jace were doing some serious talking last night." She laughs. "Wait did I say talking? I meant kissing. My lips were exploring his mou-"

That's it. I can't take this any longer...

I shove her and she shoves me back. I run into her and punch her straight in her nose. Blood trickles down my nuckles. She grabs her nose and starts whimpering. She runs into me and punches me in the stomach. I grab her leg and she falls on the floor. I kick her in her ribs repeatedly until someone grabs my waist and pulls me away from her.

I'm dragged through a thick crowd of people who were watching the fight. As soon as I'm almost out of the crowd I break out of the grip the person had me in. I turn around boiling red and see Jace's scratched face. I just scratched him in the face. I shrug. He deserved it. My face turns a deeper shade of red and I glare at him.

"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!" I yell. I run down the hall and into the janitors closet. I look around and realize this is where me and Jace had our first fight. I sit down on the ground and burry my head in my knees and start sobbing. I just got into my very first fight. What if I get suspended? I can't miss school.

The door swings open and slams. I look up and see Jace staring down at me.

Looks like our second fight is about to be at the same place...

"I TOLD YOU TO GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! WHY ARE YOU HERE?" I yell.

Jace sits next to me and grabs my hand. "Chill out Sam." I yank my hand away from his. "DON'T CALL ME SAM! MY NAME IS SAMANTHA!"

He puts his hands up and scoots away from me. "Let's just talk. I don't want to fight with you. Just tell me what's wrong." Jace says calmly.

I roll my eyes while more tears spill out of my eyes. "You. You're what's wrong. If you were wondering how my date with Billy went, it was horrible. He used me. He broke my heart. And then when I called my bestfriend he didn't answer. Out of all those times," I sigh and a tear falls down my cheek. "Out of all those times, when I needed him the most he wasn't there for me. I went to my secret place and saw him kissing my enemy. The fact that he promised to never tell anyone about that place and then did broke my heart. And the worst part is that you're that guy Jace."

Jace runs his fingers through his hair and sighs. "Look, Sam, I'm sorry-"

I cut him off. "Don't," I stand up and wipe my tears away. "Just admit that you were never really my friend in the first place. The only reason you hung out with me was because you felt bad for me because I was a nerd. You used me to get your grades up. If you were really my friend you would've kept our promise." I put my hand on the door knob and turn it.

"Sam you are my friend!" Jace yells.

I look into his beautiful big brown eyes. "No I'm not." I open the door and walk out of the closet. I can't be late to class.