(CH.5) Stay Strong

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Jays POV
           After the kidnapping Erin has been silent. I hate seeing her like this it real hurts and I know it's hard on her to think that we almost lost the baby, but we didn't. Many officers go through something like this in there line of duty and it's hard but they all get through it and bounce back up. She has been staying in our bedroom for the past week, in the dark not saying a single word. I don't know what she is going through right now, but I would trade places with her in a heartbeat. I went into the room " I'm heading into work I love you Erin" and there was nothing. No acknowledgement, no I love you back, no nothing. I get it but it hurts. I got to the precinct and was greeted by the lovely Sergeant Trudy Platt. " well the chuckles don't you look happy this morning" her sarcastic remark only made me feel worse. "Just buzz me up Platt I'm not really in the mood for this right now." And so she did once I got up to intelligence I saw everyone staring at me.
              Normally I would come in with Erin but she currently is not in the ride mindset to be working. I waked into Voights office to have a talk with him. " Hey there Halstead, how are my two favourite ladies doing?" He asked "Well sir, Erin is taking this really hard and I'm not to sure about the baby" I responded " That is to be expected, so why are you in my office?" " I came to ask you if I could have your permission to marry Erin" I asked nervously. There was a long pause. " Well Halstead, I know you love her and your baby very dearly so you have my full permission, just don't rush into things. Get it?" He said. " I get it and thank you so much sir" I left his office with a boost of confidence as if nothing could bring me down. But then I got a call. A call that made be want to curl up and cry.
                 Erin had been admitted to the hospital. Gabby, Antonio's younger sister from Fire House 51 had gone to check up on her only to find my beautiful girlfriend Erin lying with a pool of blood around her and a blade in her hand. I ran into Voights office explaining the whole situation and was cleared to leave immediately. On my way out the lovely Trudy Platt made another comment. " Gone so soon Halstead? Knew you wouldn't last" I returned with " Save it Platt, my girlfriends dying I have no time for this" and with that she shut her mouth. On my way to the hospital all I could think about was Erin and our daughter, and if they would live or die. 
              No one was aloud in her room. Will was her doctor but he did not let a single person in that room. She had lost a lot of blood, and the baby was low on oxygen but there were working on that. Giving her blood transfusions and keeping the oxygen mask on. I knew that the doctors in this hospital were amazing but could the save my family? Will walked into the waiting room and everyone stood up. " She had major blood loss and was having trouble circulating oxygen which was cutting off the supply to the baby, we were able to recirculate the oxygen and do a blood transfusion and both of them are now stable. Only two people are aloud at a time, one would be better but there are a lot of you." Will explained.
Voight told me to go in first, so I did. I walked into to see Erin pale and fragile, I had never seen her like this but I knew she would get better. " Hey" she whispered " hey, Erin how are you feeling?" I asked " doing good, how's are little girl?" She asked. " she's doing fine, her oxygen supply was cut of but she's better now. Erin I want to know why you would do this, why you would risk your life and our daughters life? I know you've been through a lot in theses past months but was it worth risking your guys lives. I love you so much Erin and loosing you two would ruin my life" it went silent, but then she said " I don't know why I did it, but I never want to jeopardize the baby. I love you a lot too Jay Halstead, I just don't know how to handle this. It's been really hard and I don't expect you to understand but I just want you to know that our baby girl is my number one priority" we just sat there staring a each other until we kissed. A passionate kiss, it was amazing until Voight walked in.
" Okay you two love birds let's wrap it up, Erin I have your discharge papers right her you are good to go. Jay take care of her she's the only daughter I've got. I love you Erin, and my little grand daughter. Bye guys" he said. Once Erin's discharge papers were signed we went back home. We just laid in bed together just relaxing with not a care in the world. I can't wait to meet our daughter I thought to myself.
Erin's POV
I don't know why I did it, why I cut. I have done it in years, never before had I bleed that much I probably nicked and artery. I love how much Jay cares about the baby and I it's really sweet. After today I really think my mind is in the right place to go back to work. Who knew I would have to hospitalized to be okay. To be honest this is the hardest thing I've had to overcome. Harder than Nadia's death, and my crappy childhood. The past is the past and now I have a family it's just the matter if I stay strong.
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Its been a while since I've updated and I'm sorry about that. I have a new book called Chicago PD ones one shots
It's basically just CPD one shots. Enjoy your week!
~Kaylyn

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