LOVE IS SELFISH

chapter four

Alexander POV

At some point you have to realize that some one can stay in your heart but not in your life.
That what I realize about Jacob when he canceled our plan, and went to a party with Sara instead.
Last Saturday we had the best day together we were actually connected.
"Alex don't worry mate well go next week there's another game, I'll get us tickets".
I look at him and nodded I know he could see I wasn't to happy.
I really wasn't going to hang with them at the party, so I called this guy Noah that I meet a month ago.
Noah was tall had brown hair, he was freaking cute and way older than me.
When we got to the party I saw Noah cute ass waiting for me.
"Who's that" my sister ask when she saw him looking at me and I was looking back.
"A friend" I replied.
"He's coming to the party?"
"Nah we going somewhere else parties are not his thing" I say with a smirk on my face.
"This was- " I ignored anything my sister had to say and walk up to Noah and we drove away.
Me and Noah didn't really go any place special, we like a few minutes away to where the party was and just sit in his car.
"You don't talk much" Noah say while getting out cause he couldn't take the silence between us.
"I don't really want to talk" I say following him out of the car.
"Why did you called me here?" He ask.
"Cause I wanted to this-" I say getting close to him and kiss him on his soft lips.
He grab me closer to him, and slowly putting his hand inside my pant.
He unbutton my pant and slide his hand inside my boxer.
He start beating my dick as I could feel him getting hard, I was groaning in pleasure and so was he.
He bring his lips down to my neck and started soaking on my soft spot.
"STOP" I yelled, "stop Noah I don't like that".
"What do you like?" He ask.
"I don't want to do that yet, I just want to kiss".
"OK Alex OK anything for you" he say.
making me feel safe, something I haven't been feeling in a long time.
We stared at each other for a while until we started kissing again.
"ALEX..ALEX..."I heard people screaming my name until I heard someone say he's over here.
I quickly push Noah away to see Jacob standing there looking at us , he saw and heard everything.
"Alexander Hamilton I am going to killed you" my sister say walking up to us with Sara.
"What they we just miss?" Sara ask.
"What do you want Olivia?" I ask.
"We are leaving now" she say.
"Noah is taking me home".
"Alex- ", "see you home " I cut her off.
Without saying anything they left.

Have you ever feel like faking a smile is so much easier than explaining why you are sad.
"Alex there's nothing wrong with you or being gay" Noah say.
I look at him with a sad smile.
Have you ever been afraid of how people would react if they found out the Truth about you.
"Yes Alex when I was in the closet like you, but telling the Truth is easier and better I promise".
"Easy for you to stay".