LOVE IS SELFISH

chapter two

Alexander POV

Silence is the most powerful scream, that how I was when Jacob and Nancy arrived. I was going to have to live with the boy I'm in love with but can't have, some time love can be really selfish.
Some time I feel like it not the future I'm afraid of , it's repeating the past that make anxious.
Doing dinner every one was talking, and laughing saying how happy they was to see each, but me.
My mom keep shouting me you are being disrespectful look a cross the dinner table, I act like I didn't see her.
"How you been doing with school Alex" Nancy ask?
"Great"was my only answer.
Everybody give me this awkward smile, saying that they know what been going on with me.
"He been getting better" my dad say breaking the silence between everyone but me.
After dinner I went to my room, I wish i could say to get away from Jacob but not when the only thing between our room is the bathroom we have to share.
Jacob moved to Olivia room since she moved to a room downstairs.
I dropped my body in my bed and fall into a deep sleep.

Jacob POV

"Secrets" everyone have lot of them, to me the best way of keeping a secret is to pretend there isn't one.
When you me and been through a lot of shits, you'll learn to just keep things inside and just don't reacted to it.
But when you Alexander Hamilton you start having mental issues, I personally think it not only cause of what happened he's like that. The kid been like that since we were young, his family just never noticed cause he didn't shut them out like he's doing now.
I been through worse than him, like when my dad walk out on me, my mom boyfriends being abusive to both of us.
The next day me and Olivia was going see some friends I haven't see in a long time and my baby Sara and Alex went with us.
I don't know what I did to this kid but he just don't like me, he never make eye contact with me, never would have a full conversation with me. When we were young he refuse to play or hang out with me.
"Alex Ema gonna be there" Olivia teased.
According to Olivia Ema and Alex been seeing each other since his girlfriend Elisabeth left.
He didn't seem like he even care what she did or nah.
When we got there he didn't pay her any attention even though we all could see she was trying to get his attention.
Alex mind was some where else like always, I wanted to know where it was so bad.
I wanted to know who was Alexander Hamilton, but how was I supposed to do that when he wasn't even talking to me.
If he wasn't telling his family anything not even his therapist
I don't think he was going to tell me.
The only thing I could do is try to found out what I did to him and maybe we could grows a friendships that we never got the chance to.