LOVE IS SELFISH

chapter three

Jacob POV

A true friend is someone you trust with all your secret, and that what I want to be for Alex.
A week past and me Alex haven't say more than five words to each other.
It not that I didn't want to say more but he just always seem to disappeared, before I could start.
And the worst things or should I say feeling been going on to me.
Like how I noticed how cute Alex was and he have such a fit body.
But mines was better, and how get a little jealous when them girls be flirting with him. I understand why though Alex was very good looking. He had long curly red blond hair, and his dimples was to die for. He always dress so good when he going out.
I know how gay this sound but I wouldn't called my self gay, I like to think I'm bisexual.
But only me know I'm attractive to guys and I want it to stay like that.

"Happiness is the secret to all beauty, there is no beauty without happiness.
If you want to find happiness find gratitude" I told Alex.
"Where did you heard that?" he ask
"I had read it somewhere".
For the first time since forever Alex smiles at me not at something else and act like I'm not even there.
"Do you read?" I ask him.
"The things I read are not really your kind of things" he replied.
"Why is that?"
"For example Jacob I read poetry about they key to death and you poetry about key to happiness."
"You not trying to find happiness" I ask.
"All I'm trying to do is get out of this place".
"Why do you want to get away so bad, what is wrong with this place".
Alex look at me and smile.
"To many bad memories" he say.
"What ever make's you feel bad, leave it. What ever make's you feel good, keep it" I told him.
"I wish it was that easy Jacob".
"But you could try Alex".
"I have a question for you I say?"
"What?"
"Do you not like me ask him?"
"W-what he say smiling, Ja I'm just not a people person."
"You know what I think" I ask smiling while looking at his beautiful face from across the living room.
"What?" he say smiling back.
"I think you just not a Jacob person".
"You are ridiculous" he say laughing. "come on, everyone is a Jacob person."
"Where are you going?" I ask him, as he turn to go to the kitchen.
"I'm hungry" he replied.
"you want something" he ask.
"Yeah " I say following him into the kitchen.
"Im getting me some cracker's, want some?"He ask.
"Yeah" I say all i could look at is sweet beautiful pink lips, smiling at me.
"We should do something later" I told him.
"Like what? " He ask.
"There's a game tonight, and I have ticket's maybe we could go together."
"Yeah" he say smile.
It seem like everyday I was slowly falling in love with him.
Love can sometimes be magical...but sometimes magic can be just an illusion.
Hands that never touch, lips that never meet. The almost lovers, never to be. That how I feel like me and Alex are.