I always wanted what they had but I had to think about it.. Did I wanted somebody who would talk to other girls . Who would lie to me . Will it ever come from his heart when he tell me he loved me ?
We ended up winning one game and losing the other . The second game I couldn't even concentrate Marquis kept texting me and I didn't text him and just turning my phone off . I hope on the way back Liyah don't ask me what happen . We got into the car and was stopped by the non moving traffic . I leaned back in my seat and turned my phone on . I looked and Marquis had called 10 times and mon had texted me . I texted mon back and Liyah was just staring at me . After a while it got annoying . " what ? " I said with a mugg . She looked at me and rolled her eyes and said " soo do I have to ask or you going to tell me . Cause it seem like we going to be here for the longest . " I sighed and said " okay . You know how me and Marquis been talking and me and mon been talking . I feel like I'm pushing mon away instead of Marquis. I just can't get that boy outta my head . It's like I knew him all my life . It's weird cause I don't feel the same way I that I feel with mon. And the reason I took forever coming to the car is because Marquis had kissed me . I'm not going to lie I liked it . But the thing is he have a girlfriend . " once I said the g word . Liyah mouth dropped open , she sighed and said " girl you know I want you to be with mon. But if you feel like you need to be with that other boy . Then be with him . " I felt a tear streamed down my face and I quickly wiped it away . That wasn't no good advice . I nodded and the traffic started moving a lot faster . We soon got to the hotel and I turned the car off and looked around in the parking lot . " don't worry , they gotta game , right now matter fact
. " Liyah said , I guess she knew what I was doing . I nodded and walked to our room and took a shower then walked into my coaches room and got some chicken and something to drink and walked back in our room . I didn't really want to talk to anyone . I plugged my phone up and heard a knock on the door . I sighed and opened the door . I rolled my eyes as I seen Marquis standing there looking at me . He tried to walk in but I stopped him " what do you want because I need to go to sleep can you make this quick?" He sighed and leaned against the wall and looked up " I just wanted to say sorry . I never should've kissed you , that was stupid of me . But can we still be friends ." That word made my heart stop ' friends ' I took a deep breath and said " I'm not the one you should be apologizing too " he stared into my eyes and I looked away from his gaze and said . " I guess I'll talk to you later " I closed the door and got in my bed and looked up into the ceiling until I fell asleep..
Did he really regret kissing me ? I felt like crying but I just laid there like a dead body .. Couldn't do nothing else but lay there thinking ....
Have you ever had that one "friend" that you want to be more than just a "friend" ? Something or someone special? And it hurts that you can't make that fantasy come to reality....
