Novellas. (One Shot Collection)

[A/D] Soldier - SHINee Minho & f(x) Amber

If only you had said goodbye then maybe it wouldn't hurt like this so much.

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I remember the first time we met. I was hard headed while you kept on pushing for us to be friends. I never really liked attention yet you gave all of yours to me. I entered the army because I thought this way, maybe everyone could forget about me, but you kept on reminding me that I still exist, especially in your world.

Time passed by as we grew closer with one another. You learned how girly I actually was and I learned how foolish you actually were. We kept in touch even on days off and because of that, our friendship grew to something more than just friends.

Days became Months and Months became Years until you finally asked me to be with you forever as we fought side by side in the middle of the battlefield. It was a wild thing to do, to propose in the middle of the war, but I was never surprised, you were always wild and daring, and I love it.

"Amber, you ready?" You asked me as I packed up my weapons. I nodded to your question as you kissed me with your full lips with passion. We always do this because we were afraid, afraid that maybe one day we would woke up without anyone on our side. We always prepared ourselves for what the future might throw at us. Be it a rock or a bomb.

I remember how we hung out inside our favorite cafe. I remember how some girl came to you because they thought you were out with a guy friend. And I saw how you turned them down politely, I also saw they scowling faces towards me as they mutter bad words that you knew I could never handle.

You always manage to comfort me by holding my hand and rubbing circles around it. You knew it soothes me and comforts me to know that someone out there still loves me, someone like you. You know me too well that i'm afraid of leaning on to you. Because I know one day, I can't lean on anymore.

I remember how your eyes brightened as I brought up the question. "Minho, how many kids do you want?" You immediately spat out numbers that were unbelievable to my ears. "5? No, 10? I want a lot so we could be happy everyday. Never mind the chaos it would bring, at least all of us would be happy." I playfully punched you thinking how hard it would be for me to bear 10 children.

I remember the day you found out that I scarred myself. You scolded me and kept an eye on me, making sure that I wouldn't hurt myself. Months passed and I was already 6 months clean, I was really thankful because of that. Now I have this semicolon tattoo on my wrist that would remind me that I survived. And it was all because of you.

I never realized my true intentions when I first became a soldier. At first I thought it was because I have to escape life. Little did I know that life was what I was entering. I was entering a life with you. A life I was so happy to accept, because for once, I felt that I was accepted, for once, I felt that I was loved.

I remember meeting your parents for the first time. You told me to just be myself and don't wear what I never liked. I was really nervous that day. What would your parents think of me? Will they think i'm a boy? Will they think that you're gay? Questions lingered inside my head as we drove towards their house.

My palms were sweaty and I was shaking, but you held me, between your arms as you whispered that everything will be okay. And somehow I calmed down. What magic trick did you used on me? I would love to know it because I know someday, you won't be able to do it again.

We entered your house and surprisingly, your parents didn't bombarded you, but me. "Oh is this her? You look so pretty!" "My daughter-in-law is so pretty." "She's a keeper son." I nervously smiled as they attacked me with hugs. You laughed at the side but I only smiled at you. Hearing you laugh was the best tune to my ears.