Things were still a little weird with Justin and I.
We went to my house and decided to watch some movies.
There was still something in the back of my mind telling me not to believe Justin.
But there was an even bigger voice in my head telling me to believe him.
I love him.
Or, at least I think I do, I mean we really don't know each other all that well.
We were sitting on the couch watching Pitch Perfect, because that movie almost always makes me laugh.
But for some reason tonight I just couldn't.
Justin looked over at me.
"Are you okay?" He asked
"Fine." I said back
He used his hand and made me look at him.
"Hey.. Whats wrong?" He asked
I looked into his eyes and thought for a second.
How on earth was I supposed to explain this to him.
"Nothing.. I promise, I'm just really tired is all" I said trying to sound reasuring.
Not likely though.
"Okay.. Well you can go to sleep if you want.. I can leave and go hang out with the rest of the guys.." He said sounding a little sad.
"No, that's okay, I'm fine I swear." I told him
He pulled me close to him and kissed my temple.
"I know your still not very sure if I'm telling the truth or not.. You could always call her you know? She said she'd talk to you." He said
" I know.. I just don't want to.. Not yet at least." I told him
"I love you" He wispered
"I know.." I said back
And then I slowly fell asleep.
When I woke up I heard Justin on the phone.
"She doesn't believe me" He said
There was a short pause so I know that is was the other person on the phone talking.
"I don't know what to do."
Pause.
"No, I am telling the truth I swear!"
Pause.
"It's not like last time dude. I am in love with her. I am not lying."
Pause.
Wait.. Last time??
"How am I going to convince her that I really do love her like I say I do? What am I going to do man?"
Pause.
"Ugh. No shes asleep. I don't know when shes going to wake up, I hope soon."
Pause.
Yeah, I'll let you know what happens"
Pause.
"Yeah, Later."
I heard him lay his head down on the counter and sigh.
I stood up and leaned against the door frame.
"Are you okay?" I asked
He sat up and turned around.
"Yeah sweetheart, I'm fine" He said walking up to me
He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead.
"I just don't want to loose you is all.. I love you.." He wispered to me
I sighed, and wrapped my arms around him too
"I love you too" I said
He didn't let go of me for awhile.
"How bout we go eat chinese food?" He asked
I smiled
"I'd love too" I told him
I stood up on my tiptoes and kissed him softly
"We'll be okay.." I told him
He nodded and grabbed his car keys.
We slipped on our shoes and got into the car.
It was silent for awhile.
Things we're still weird between us, but can you blame me?
I just wish I knew the total truth.
No ifs, ands, or buts.
We got to the restraunt and made small talk..
God when will this be over?
How long until we are back to normal?
I hope things work out..
I don't want all of this to go downhill from here.
I missed him while we were apart.
And he's leaving tomorrow
What am I going to do when he leaves again?
How am I going to deal with the press saying all the bullcrap stories of him and his new "Girlfriend"?
God I'm not looking forward to this.
But hey, It's a price I'm willing to pay right?
I had an idea..
"Hey.. Lets play 20 questions.. Get to know each other better?" He smiled
"Ok.. You start"
