-Val's P.O.V.-
With no hesitation he broke off the kiss and started to take off what remained of my clothes. I laid there as I watched him undress himself. He looked very handsome. Everything about him was desiring. I couldn't get enough even though this would be the first time I would actually have him. As he came back down to kiss me our eyes locked. And all that went through my head was..
Can I go off seeing him with someone else now?
What would happen to our relationship if this doesn't work?
He's never been a relationship type. What makes me different?
Josh?...
Do I really love him?
Can I go through with this and cheat on him?
I've never cheated on anyone before. Why am I starting now? And why am scared of cheating? Wasn't I already planning on breaking up with Josh anyway?
Everything that I wanted came crashing down on me at once. Thinking twice about it scared me. Before i want and take all of this I first needed to get all of this out there and talk to Carter about what's going on in this weird mind of mine.
Once my mind came back down to earth Carter was kissing my stomach leaving little bite marks. My thoughts must have been so deep I didn't even feel once he started to kiss me.
"Carter, stop!" I yelled. Pushing him away giving me space to get up. As I looked for my clothes I said "I.. I cant do this." I paused. I sat there looking at the ground while he stood there confused not knowing what he to say. I never bothered to look at him after that, knowing it would bring me to tears. After a moment of silence, "Carter, please leave." was all that came out of my mouth. I chocked on my words. I don't know why this was hurting. I felt my heart sink down to my stomach. I don't even know when was the last time I felt this way. With nothing to say he grabbed his clothes and walked to the restroom to change. I know it wasn't because he was shy to change in front of me but more to give himself space to think. All of this was happening so quick I couldn't even get through my head exactly what was happening.
As I was walking out of my room towards the kitchen he was stepping out of the restroom and without taking one look at me, he left.
Nothing.
He said nothing.
Not even bye.
Just an hour ago he was all up in my face telling me he wasn't going to stop this time and that I would be his today. So why did he leave without a fight? Was he lying to me the entire time? I depressed myself just thinking about everything that had just happened. Everything that I did. I was hoping that we could of talked about the things I was worried about but he left. And now I'm stuck here sitting in my couch all alone. This is exactly what I was scared of. This. How could I be so stupid to actually believe he would fight to be with me? That he wouldn't give up on me? My thoughts were cut off when my phone started to buzz. Just at that moment in a quickness I felt like throwing up. It was Carter. I was scared to look at what he texted me. Im scared to see if he didn't want to talk to me anymore. So many things started rushing through my head. Which I don't even know how that was possible because my head was already filled with so many thoughts and worries.
Once I got the nerve to open up his text, I wished I hadn't.
"I Love You." was all it said.
A/N
I know this is very, very short and I'm sorry but I promise you next chapter will so much longer! Hope you like it! :]
