Beside you// Michael Clifford

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i feel so lonely. i feel so hated. i have cuts down my wrists and thighs because it's the only why i can handle my pain.

why should i live? i try so hard to get better for you. i try to live for you. live my life because your not able to.

i have the letter you wrote me in my hands. its stained with tear stains. i rip it open for the first time since you died 6 months ago. i cry a little bit more before i read it.

i know this might seem strange. i don't even know if you know me but i know you. i look at you when your not looking and i see your long blonde hair in front of your face so you put it behind your ears. i see the way you pay attention to the teacher and when you don't get something you bite the top of your pencil.

your so beautiful that i was to scared to talk to you. scared i wasnt good enough for you. life is hard and i can't handle it anymore. the pain has finally got to me and i can't handle it anymore. i love you remember that. here's one of my bracelets keep it to keep me in your memories.

goodbye forever my love, michael clifford

im sorry michael but i can't do this i can't love pretending im happy without you here. but i have to... so goodbye for now but one day we'll be together at last.