Dirty Little Secrets...(Justin Bieber Love Story) { UNDER EDITING }

" Impossible....."

 ~Justin's P.O.V~ * 2 hours later*

I bit my lip nervously as I looked at the clock. It was going on 3:00 a.m. and she still hasn't woke yet. Everything was going through my head at once that I didn't even know what to think about first.

What if she doesn't wake up?

What if everything I did was for nothing?

What if she lives but she hates me?

If she doesn't make it, how will I live without her?

Will she still love me?

Why didn't I say 'I love you' back?!

I started to calm myself down, noticing I was turning on my own self.

Jaden: "Bro, you okay?" He asked me, tearing me from my thoughts. I looked at him and nodded my head, he looked at me and lifted his eyebrow knowing I wasn't being honest. I sighed.

Me: "It's been 2 hours since the operation and she still hasn't woken up. What if she doesn't?" I said looking at him with a concerned expression. He licked his lips, not knowing what to say. I looked away, feeling helpless. Jaden eagerly tapped me on my shoulder..

Jaden: "The doctors coming.." He said pointing to doctor Pockanovic that was coming this way. I got up slowly standing up as his large stature stood before me. I tried to read his face, but his face no longer held emotion, it was so unreadable that I couldn't have got any clue. Not even from the way he acted.

Mr. Pockanovic: " I don't understand, everything went right.. It-It's a mystery. We couldn't....." He started to say, but looked down to avoid my broken expression.

Briana: "Justin what's going on?" She said reading my dreadful reaction. I looked at everyone and shook my head slowly, turning back quickly to not see their lugubrious face. Groans and cries began to fill the air as Briana, Becky, and Jaden went into complete despair. I looked at the doctor and breathed shakily knowing there was going to be tears soon. My lips started to quiver unstoppably making it hard to control.

Me: "Can I-I see her fir-first please?" I managed to say. He closed his eyes and nodded, walking me into the room where Christina laid on the hospital bed, she had a large bandage wrapped around her head and wires sticking out of her nose. The monitor was still beeping making a tear come out of my eyes knowing she was going to slip out of my arms from one pull at a plug.

Mr. Pockanovic: " You have a few minutes Mr. Bieber, I will be back then.." He said. I nodded. He closed the door lightly, leaving me alone with Christina. I walked over beside her and shakily touched her hand, she felt cold and stiff. almost like she wasn't even there. I sat down at a chair beside her and looked at her, not saying a word. Her face was pale, almost the color of the clock that stood on the wall. Her lips looked like she still managed to put on her shimmery pink lip gloss, and her eyes lay still and nonchalant. I sighed shakily and ran my finger across her pale cheek, looking at the scratches that have healed.

I listened to the monitor looking at my ghost-like girlfriend. I inhaled through my mouth and exhaled through my nose, ready to speak.

Me: "Chris, I just want you to know, that I love you and I always will. I never meant for this to happen, or I never meant for this to go too far.." I said pausing to take a breath. " I just-- I should've protected you more, I should've been there by your side no matter how mad I was, everything that happened I wanted that to happen to me, I want to take it all back and make it right. And it's not one day that I don't think about it." I said pausing to wipe a tear from my eye.

I took her hand in mines and kissed it, feeling the coldness on my lips.

Me: "I remember the time when we first met. I remember when I first saw you." I chuckled. "I knew from that point on..... I was in love." I looked at her and smiled, knowing if she was conscious she would smile back. " I know this might sound cheesy, but the first thing that attracted me to you was your eyes. No matter if you was sad, you always had that sparkle in your eye, you always been there for me, and you've supported me through everything. I never..... ever, had a person that made me as happy as you made me." I said.

I wiped my tears away as they rolled down my cheeks.

Me: "I don't know if I can live without you, I-I just don't know what to do. I never even said 'I love you' back when you told me. You just think I hate you right now, and I don't. I'm sor--" I started to say but I held my head down and tears escaped my eyes wildly. I sniffled and stood up from the chair, looking at her pale complexion. I cupped her right cheek with my hand and leaned in, kissing her lightly on the lips. " I love you more Christina..." I said. I let my hand slip from her cheek and I meandered by the door, taking one last big breath before I opened it.

?: " Impossible...."

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This is it guys... This is the end of the story.

We're thinking about a sequel, what do you think?