My sun within the darkness (a liam payne fan fiction)

chapter 9

"I want to be yours, I want you to be mine. You are too sweet and fragile to go through what you have been going through. I want to protect you and I want to be the light at the end of this dark tunnel your in. I want to be the sun within your darkness."  Liam said

He wants to be more with me, he just kissed me and the way he is holding me right now...it's like hes afraid that if he lets go he wont ever get me back. I want to tell him i want to be his and i want him to be mine but if my father knows about any of this, if he even finds out that Liam was inside, he will be angy. No matter how much I want more with Liam I can't. I can't bring him into my life aymore. I've alredy let him know too much about me and I can't let him in anymore.

"I can't." I say pulling away from him.

"W-what?" He asks pain and confusion clear in his voice.

"I can't do this Liam." I say looking into his eyes. He looks like he might cry.

"E-emma if this is about your f-father then you can run away, come live with me, let me prootect you. You aren't safe here." He says taking my chin and tilting it up so i have to look into his eyes. I tear my eyes away and i take a step back away from him. He isn't going to let this go is he? I know what I have to do, I have to lie and hurt him...sadly its the only way.

"You don't understand I-"

"I do understand, I can help you." He says cutting me off.

"No, you don't because...it's not just that I can't...I don't want to." I looked into his eyes when i said the last part. I know i am hurting im but it's for the best, I wouldn't ever forgive myself if he got physically hurt because of me.

"Oh, well that...that changes things." He said taking a step back. It takes everything in me not to cry and to maintain this neutral state.

"You should go." I say quietly after a long moment of him looking at me and me looking at the ground. He doesn't say anything, just turns and walks away. When i hear the door close I drop to the ground crying and letting everything out. I wish I did't have so much baggage because if I was normal, if I wasn't such a burden on people I would be able to make him happy and be what he wants me to be.

***LIAM"S POV***

"No, you don't because...it's not just that I can't...I don't want to." She looked up at me with her gorgeous eyes once she said the last part. I wasn't expecting that and I don't know what to say so I just say "Oh, well that changes things." And take a step back from her. I stand there staring at her looking for any sign she is lying but she just stands thee staring at the ground, her long red hair covering her face.

"You should go." She says without looking up. I turn and walk out of her house and I jump into my truck. I drive a few houses down and cut the engine when I'm in my driveway. I jump out of the car and run into the house. When i'm in my room I realize how angry I am. I can't tell if i'm angry that she said she doesn't want me or if i'm mad at myself for kissng her when she clearly doesn't want me. I let out a loud scream and turn and punch my wall leaving a huge hole. I absorb the pain now burning in my hand, I know ive at least fractured it, i'll just wear a brace until it's better. I don't know what to do now so i just turn on my playlist and blast it through my speakers. I walk over and lock the door and lay down on my bed. I need to clear my head.

***NEXT DAY-EMMA'S POV***

I get up and get ready for school. I make sure to cover up the prominate bruise on my face before I walk out the door. It's cold and rainy again today so I decide to wear my favorite jeans and my comfiest sweatshirt. It's only sprinkling when I walk outside and I hope the rain holds up for the short walk to school.