I'm done with life.
I've almost slid the first blade I found in my garage to my wrist.
I've almost choked myself with a cable long ago.
I've almost adulterated my self with a bane.
I've almost stabbed my chest with a cutter.
I've almost killed myself.
I've almost done it.
But I can't.
I can't because I'm scared.
I'm scared because I'll regret.
I'll regret because this is not the best answer.
I can't.
But I want to.
I want to be with my friends.
I want to be with my family.
I want to be with myself.
I want to be in heaven.
I want to die.
But I just can't.
I lose them all.
I'm all alone in this world.
In this reality.
I want to come after them and smack their heads.
I want them to know that we are still one whole group.
And that I can't be without them.
Why does it have to be me left...
Why can't I go after them.
But I'm scared.
I'm scared when I saw all their faces.
Pale.
Lifeless.
Sad.
Contented.
Upset.
I'm scared when I saw them all one by one losing their hold on to hope.
I'm scared when they left me.
I don't know how it started and went on this far but I'm pretty sure with one thing.
It started with one person.
One person whom I love the most.
One person who I spent most of my time the most.
One person who I never expected was the first one to leave us.
One person that I trusted to be with me for the rest of my life.
That one person who started it all.
It all started with .....
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Jin.
[Hello guys. Now I've decided that I'll really continue and finish this book. This is just a short series so I'm sure I can do this.]
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If I Die Young
Fiksi PenggemarI don't want to die...... But I want to end my suffering..... I want to run away...... But where should I go..... I need someone........... But there's no one who understands me.... I wanted to end it so badly....... I wanted to cut my self..... I w...