Take my heart and take my hand

Chapter 4

I must admit that I woke up queasy the next few days, when I had a sleepover with the girls I did too. Spencer's birthday was very soon but since Toby reserved her on her birthday we had a sleepover now.

I ran to the toilet when I felt like I was going to throw up. It happened a lot on the days after staying over at Ezra's with the others. When the girls didn't see me in the morning they must have noticed I was in the toilet because soon they all stood in the door opening. My head was hanging over the toilet, I had put my hair up in a ponytail on my way to the toilet. "Jeez, Ar. Are you okay" Spencer said. "No..." I felt tears in my eyes. I was getting tired of throwing up in the morning. Emily walked towards me and bent down. "Hey, it's okay. You probably just ate the wrong thing." She put her arm around me. "No, it's not the first time Em. I woke up feeling queasy almost every day."

Then it hit me, hard. I realized I also didn't get my period which should have come 2 weeks ago. I was crying, I couldn't be pregnant. I just couldn't. "Aria, what's wrong" Spencer said rubbing my back.. "I didn't get my period" I finally said. Hanna gasped "oh my god! You are pregnant. There will run a little Fitz or little you around here soon." Emily and Spencer looked at her. "Han, I don't think it's really a good time to be happy." I was still crying on the floor on Spencer's chest. "Spencer, you stay here with Aria. Hanna and I are going to get a pregnancy test."

"Did you tell Hanna and Emily about you and Ezra?" "No, yea well I told Hanna when we were getting coffee and we saw Nicole but I didn't tell Emily." "Hanna will probably tell her on their way" she said. "Spencer, what if I'm really pregnant?" "Don't freak out Ar, we are all here to support you, and I'm sure Ezra will like it too. Maybe he needs to get used to it at first, but I'm sure he will love you the same, or even more." "What about my parents, Ezra's mom? She asked Maggie to remove his child what if she does that to me too. What if my dad freaks out? What if they don't want me anymore" I freaked out. "Aria, please calm down. Stay here I'll get you some water."

I was sitting on Spencer's bed when Emily and Hanna came back. "We got two test, that women said it was more reliable when you do two tests, oh and Hanna told me about you and Ezra" Emily said. "It's okay, thanks" I said taking the tests. I was nervous, really nervous. I went to the toilet and I could hear the girls talking with Spencer. "So how does she feel about this" I heard Emily ask Spencer. "Poor thing, she is scared to death. And I want to help her but I have no idea how I can. She's afraid that no one will accept it..." "As long as we support her things will be fine, I would love to be an aunt" Hanna said. I decided to take the first test. I needed to wait a minute before getting the result. My hands were shaking when I took the test from the sink. Positive, the test was positive. I quickly took the second test as well, hoping it would say negative. But it wasn't it was just as positive as the first one. There was a tiny little baby growing inside of me. And it was Ezra's. "Aria, are you okay in there" Emily asked. I unlocked the door and came out with the tests. I threw them on Spencer's bed before I started crying again. "I'm pregnant."

After a few weeks I started to accept the fact that there was a tiny me or a tiny Fitz in me but I still hadn't told anyone besides the girls. I had an appointment with a doctor today, Spencer offered to go with me. But right now I was with Ezra in the brew. As much as I tried to ignore him I couldn't. "Ezra, I need to go" "Hm, why? I thought we were having the whole day to ourselves" he said. He sounded pretty upset. "It's not that I don't want to stay here but... My parents are in town again, they wanted to meet me today. They're leaving tonight so the only time we could was today, I'm sorry." "Well, have fun then. I'll see you tonight? We can have take out and watch an old black and white movie." I smiled "of course. I love you" I said giving him a kiss. When I walked out of the brew I saw Ezra getting his phone out of his pocket. He read something and looked back at me, it was weird.

I drove to Spencer, still wondering what that text from Ezra could probably say. I stopped on her porch and waited for her to get in. "So you're ready" Spencer said while she stepped in the car. "Not really but you know... It's something that needs to be done." The car ride was very quiet. When we arrived at the hospital we waited in the waiting room.

"Aria Montgomery" a nurse called my name. Spencer and I walked after her to a small room. "Hi, I'm Doctor Green and I'll be your doctor from now on." "I'm Aria Montgomery and this is my best friend Spencer Hastings." We shook hands. "You made an appointment because..." He looked in his system "because you think you're pregnant. I am first going to ask you some questions and then we'll do an ultrasound so we can see for how long you might be pregnant." "Okay" I said. "So uhm, when did you find out you may be pregnant?" "Three weeks ago." He typed something in on his computer. "If you counted from the day you had sex till now, how long would it be?" "Uhm.. Around 8 or 9 weeks I think." "Okay, if you would come with me." I laid down on that kind of bed thing. "Can you put your shirt up for me, it may be a little cold but you'll get used to it." He put some kind of gel on my belly and I shivered, it was cold and I was nervous as hell. He moved around on my belly. "Well Aria, if you'd like to see this, on that screen is your baby. For what I can see you're 8 weeks pregnant and the baby is healthy." I saw Spencer looking at the screen very proudly. I smiled, for the first time since I knew I'm pregnant I smiled. Knowing I for sure had a really good friend who would stay with me in this.

After the appointment I went to Ezra. I knocked on his door. "Hey" he said opening it. "Hi" I gave him a kiss which he didn't return. What was wrong? "Ezra.. What's." He interrupted me. "Aria? Where did you go?" "My parents visited me today, I told you in the brew." "What's this then." He showed me a text on his phone. Probably the text he got when I left.

Pretty little liars keep on lying... Just wanted to let you know she's getting an ultrasound today. Can you imagine a little Fitz👶🏽 or Aria running around soon? You might need to ask her about it. – A.D.

"Ezra, I swear I was going to tell you... But" I started. "There are no butt's Aria, it is mine too. You should have told me right when you found out." "Yea well, I wasn't that happy about it, I needed to figure it out myself" I said rolling my eyes holding back tears. "When did you find out" he asked me while he calmed himself down. "At Spencer's sleepover, I woke up again that day feeling extremely queasy, then I realized I didn't get my period and I stressed out.. Hanna and Emily went to get a test and it was positive. I didn't want you to find out like this. I'm sorry." I sat down at his couch and started crying, I guess my emotions were still really mixed about this. He hugged me. "Ar, it's okay, I didn't mean it like that." "Ezra, I'm scared... What if I'll be the worst mom on earth" I said while I buried my face deeper in his chest. "Hey, Ar look at me" he grabbed my chin and let me face him "you'll be the best mom ever. I'm sure about that. We are going to raise this child together, we'll face the consequences together. You're not alone in this, it's okay to feel this way, it wasn't really planned. But either way I will support you in this, your friends will and your parents will too because I love you more than anything in the world" he whipped my tears away "you're way too beautiful for those tears." I blushed. "I love you Ezra." I kissed him "Oh and please, don't believe everything A.D. says. We don't even know who it is" I said breaking the kiss. "I won't" he said kissing me again. "No, wait. You need to promise me to come with me to the next appointment." "When is it?" "In 5 weeks." "Fine, can I kiss you now?" "Not yet, how are we going to tell, I mean..I'm not showing yet but in a few weeks when my parents actually visit I probably will. Besides, I don't want them to find out from anyone else, I don't think they even know where back together" I said. "Aria, you're a grown woman. They can't tell you what to do. We'll plan something, but not now. I want to kiss my beautiful girlfriend." He gently pulled me closer and leaned in. Our lips touched and it felt like sparks were all over the room.

{Chapter 4 😘 ~ M}