It's been about a month since Sasori tried to rape you and you've avoided him like he was a disease, well in your eyes he was. Hidan has helped you with avoiding and you've been very thankful for that.
Over this past month you and Hidan have gotten pretty close. For the first two weeks after the 'incident' he would get food for you. Then you started craving alcohol and kept on begging him to get you it until he finally did. I confessed to him about my nightmares and he understood why I needed it.
Most would say that he was only helping my problem by getting me alcohol but them people don't know me. Hidan knew it would help me with my nightmares and horrible thoughts. He knew me. It almost feels like he's always been here.
You've informed him of most of the details about my past with Orochimaru now and he finally understands why nearly all your sentences consist of violence or sarcasm and why you're quite a angry person person on the surface. Its all an act so that you seem strong when really, when it comes to mental states your quite weak. Only Konan, Deidara and now Hidan know this. Everyone else in the Akastsuki thinks that you just enjoy being well, a bitch. They don't see the real you. The you that you hate. At least you hope they don't see it.
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Right now you were on your way to the living room to find someone to just have a conversation with whilst you drank. You knew Sasori wasn't at the base at the moment as he and Deidara set off on a 1 week mission yesterday. Sasori. You hate him. So much. Non of the other members dared to mention his name in your presence but you knew they talked about what happened. Sometimes you'd hear them but it didn't piss you off. If it was someone else's drama, you'd be all up in it.
You made it to the room and saw everyone their apart from Konan, Pein, Sasori, Deidara and Hidan.
"Sup ya cum buckets" you say as you flop out on the couch and place your legs over Itachi.
"Why must you be so annoying and vulgar at the same time" he mumbles as he tries to push your legs off his body but fails.
"Because that's why you love me" you cheer as the rest of the group snicker at the expression place on Itachi's face.
You pull the flask from out of your pocket and take a big swig before placing it on the side.
"See you're drinking again Y/N" Kakuza says with an unimpressed tone.
"As always Kakuza..." You sigh sounding more sad than you meant to. Everyone looked at you strangely before turning their attention back to the TV. They were watching How I Met Your Mother, which didn't really bother you. You just came here for some form of company whilst you drank. In about 10 minutes you had finished your first flask so you took out your 'emergency flask' and drank from that. Another 15 minutes past and you went for a drink from your flask and it was empty. Shit. You got up to refill when someone grabbed your arm. It was... Itachi.
"Don't you think you've had enough for now, its only 2pm" he cautioned. You looked at him with a very confused expression.
"Well then... Umm no I don't think I've had enough so I'm going to go to the kitchen and get myself a bottle of sake" you stated before releasing your arm from his grip and looking up. All eyes were on you. Why was everyone looking at you? You were about to yell when you felt a hand on your shoulder. You turned to see Hidan holding a bottle of sake.
"Here you go, I thought I'd give you this before you fucking killed them all" he laughed "I thought you guys fucking new better. You always give a women what she fucking wants"
You took the bottle and sat down, this time with your legs crossed and your body facing the others. Hidan sat in the seat opposite to you. You popped the cork on your bottle and drank about a quarter of it. You were starting to feel a lil tipsy now.
Everyone was still looking at you and Tobi spoke, saying something you never thought he would.
"Y/N... Tobi thinks you should stop... Please"
You looked at him with wide eyes but quickly switched your facial expression to one that was more emotionless.
"I'm sorry Tobi" was all you said before finishing the bottle and walking off to your room to drink from your stash, wondering why everyone was looking at you with eyes of disappointment and shame.
Hidan's POV
We all watched as Y/N walked out the room. I wasn't surprised, I knew how she got when she felt pressured. She probably doesn't even know why everyone was trying to get her to stop. They didn't usually. She couldn't see that people actually care about her and her wellbeing. I turned to see the other members looking at me with anger.
"What the hell man! Why'd you give her the booze?" Kisame asked
"That was a stupid move, even for you Hidan" Itachi said.
Kakuza started to say "I just can't beli-" but was interrupted by Hidan throwing a bottle.
"WHY DON'T YOU ALL SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Hidan shouted looking at them with dark eyes. "You think I don't know that I shouldn't give her alcohol huh? Well guess fucking what, I do. But its the only thing I can do to help HER. You haven't seen without alcohol have ya? Well I fucking have and it was fucking horrible. She looked dead and she couldn't stop fucking shaking. That was only after 2 fucking weeks. You also haven't seen her beg on her knees in tears asking me for a drink. You think she drinks because she wants to? Don't be so fucking stupid. She drinks because its the only fucking thing she has that can take her away from the pain she feels deep in her heart. The pain that was caused long ago but sticks with her, clawing at a her fucking soul trying to make her give up. The pain that gives her unimaginable nightmares. If you think you know shit about Y/N then you fucking wrong. You could never understand what shes going through. So before you go around telling her to stop fucking drinking. I want you to look into her eyes. I want you to see the pain and the sadness hidden in them. Then and only the can you call me stupid for giving her alcohol." Hidan raged.
Nobody knew what to say. They all just looked at the floor.
"I'm gonna go check on her, I'll see you assholes at dinner" I told everyone before heading off to see Y/N.
What is this that I'm feeling for her? Why do I feel like I need to protect her... Hold her... Lo- NO! Not that. I don't feel that for her... Do I?
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Hidan x Reader- Confusing Love
Fanfiction(I do not own the cover photo) Being a member of the Akatsuki is hard, especially when you have to deal with the "comedy duo" Hidan and Kakuzu. What will happen when Hidan starts noticing your not just a drunk for the fun of it, but because of your...
