It's been six days since I arrived at the Irwin's. So far nothing really eventful has happened .we went to school for the last week before Christmas break. Today is our first Official day off, Friday.
I push the plushy blue sheet off my legs. I wince at the seeping light coming through my blinds. The clock reads 11:00 . I sign in relief. It feels so nice to be on break. This is one if the first days I actually feel refreshed after waking up.
My arms tremble when I step into the tilled kitchen. The A/C must be cranked up because it is freezing. I back track to my room and pull on a pair of fuzzy socks and throw on a sweater.
I make it back to the kitchen and open the cupboards to get a bowl of Cheerios . The milk sloshes over the sides as I pour a large amount into it.
While I shovel the last bite into my mouth I look around. The place looks like a mess. I decide to do what I do best and pick up the cleaning supplies.
Considering the time, ashton is probably still sleeping and won't wake up until 12:30 . I have a little less than an hour to clean the kitchen without Ashton nagging me to leave it dirty.
I quickly plug in my ear phones and blare my music. I start sponging down the counters and before I know it, I'm mopping the floor.
The catchy music makes me dance along and I start to sing at the top of my voice . I hear a noise behind me . 'Oh great another thing to clean' I silently say to myself and continue using the mop as a dance partner.
Clap.clap.clap. I scream and turn around to see Luke clapping while doubled over. Calum is next to him taping me.
" I think we have found the fifth member of the band." Michael teases . I stood there ,my mouth agape . I didn't know wether to play it off or yell.
Luckily seconds later ashton comes into the room. " what going on y'all ." He glances at me nervously.
"Can I talk to you , in the living room."
"Ooo!" All the boys chime in. oh come on , are we six years old ? Ashton roles his eyes at his band members and follows me into the next room.
I finally turn to look at him "Really , ashton ? "
"Look, I didn't know I had to host a band practice once a month! I swear. They literally told me two days ago and I didn't have time ..."
"Seriously , TWO days . That enough time to give me a fair warning to stay away for a while !"
"I know , but I didn't want you to be mad at me and..." I cut him off again.
"Save it. I am going to my room. You can get me when you are finished." And with that I walk through my door and forget the cleaning supplies. I pick up the book I never retrieved from Sunday and start on the first page because I have a feeling this is going to be a long day.
***
After three hours of non stop banging on instruments , I finally hear the band's version of Teenage Dirtbag stop. I send a million thank yous to god. My splitting headache is slowly wearing away.
I hear three wraps at my door. Suspecting it would be ashton coming to explain himself, I yell," it's unlocked!"
Through the door comes a tall blonde haired boy . I roll my eyes. He just can't seem to back the fuck off. "Hey ,how are you?"
What the actual hell. I was expecting some sarcastic remark or rude comment, but not that . " fine , how is Amber." Oh shit. I didn't meant to say that. I quickly cover my mouth.
He looks completely shocked then his blue eyes soften " look that's what I wanted to talk to you about . I'm wanted to explain and I know I only have alittle time to..."
Sometimes hes just a damn idiot."good bye." I start to push him out the door of the guest room.
"Please!" He pleads one last time cupping my face before I slam the oak in his face, making sure to lock it.
I run over to the bed. While grabbing a throw pillow I burry my head into it and scream. The wounds he made were fading but still sting didn't he see that? I mean I seems like I over react when I see him but I have my reasons!
I still can't think over what happend and not want to rip my eye balls out! Did he really think I was that fucking stupid and nieve. Then I allow my mind to wander to places It hasn't wondered to in months.
***
I remember rushing down the hall with a gift wrapped in my hands. I was so jittery to see Luke's reaction to his six month anniversary gift I had gotten him. It took a lot of work but it was worth it.made me smile to even think about it. It's weird how one person can light up your whole life by just being them.
I think back to this morning when he ran and picked me up and swung me in circles . It felt unreal , almost like a movie. Ill never forget the sent of his mint hair while I burrowed my fingers In to his blond locks.
As I get closer to the end of the hall I start to wonder: what did he get me? Will I like it? Will he like my gift ? Did he even remember ? Everything keeps rushing around in my brain At once , I feel light headed.
I finally reach the flickering light at the end of the corridor and wait. We had planned to meet here because this is where we met, and when he asked me out, and our first kiss. A lot has happened in hall B 15-16 years division.
I can't help but check my watch. It's only five minutes past the time we planned to me , I try to clam myself down.
After fifteen minutes of waiting I start to get anxious. I come up off the wall i wAs leaning against and start to pace.The janitors closet light was the only light in in the hall . That's odd , I think to myself, that light is never on.
It's now been twenty minutes since the original plan was to commence so I decide to send him a quick text
*Hey babe! Where are you ! Are. We still meeting up ?" I type to Luke.
A few seconds later I hear a vibrating noise . If I didn't know any better I'd think it was the air condition . But I do and I know for a fact this janitors closet is notoriously know for hooking up.
I feel tears wheel In my eyes as the realization dawns on me. Luke had been acting weird lately , but I just thought he was nervous. How could I be so stupid . I pull aside the door and find a small body intwined with another.
The girl had long brown and curls and pointy elbows. A deep tan ran around her body. She wore tight jeans and a tank top and to top it all off her cherry red lips that were connected with Luke's, my Luke's, or at least I though my Luke.
She pulls away and looks right at me, back to Luke ,then just keeps switching glances from one another." I'm going to let you two talk things out." She finally says. Her voice is annoying but my opinion is obviously biased . She didn't even sound like she felt bad .
I would hurt less if he tried to explain , but all he did was try and go after the girl he cheated with. I dropped my gift . I took the home made music book out and tore it in half. i hear the cd fall along wit it .Both had all our favorite songs , to listen and play.
Later that week word got out and I learned his motives. He was with this sleaze because I was getting boring an he knew he couldn't get what he wanted from me . He had also planned it perfectly so I would find out and break up with him so he wouldn't have to do it himself. Coward.
Soon rumors of all kinds where spreading about me.
***
I pull my head up from the tear stained pillow and wipe my wet cheeks. No one knows the full story so they don't understand how hat it was, is.
It doesn't just hurt to be around him , it's also embarrassing . Ill never forget how he made me feel like I was so stupid. I don't ever want to feel that low again because after a while I started feeling so depressed . so I made a pack to keep my distance . I had been true to it since last week .
A/R( hey thanks for all 46 of you readers! Hahha sorry there is probably a lot of typos I had to type these chapters on my phone.)
