Unwanted Attention

Chapter 20

"I love you too." I responded to Harry.

I really don't want to leave this part of my life. I don't want to leave him at all. He makes me so much happier even when I'm on the verge of breaking.

"Come on." he said pulling himself up before pulling me to my feet.

"Where are we going?" I asked as he intertwined his finger with mine and walked us down the hall towards an old beaten door that read 'Men's change room'.

"Harry no," I said firmly. "I'm not going into the men's change room"

"No body will care." he smirked.

"But I do." I flushed of my colour.

"Anna..." Harry whined.

"Harry..." I mocked.

"Fine. We'll just go back to my place." he gave up.

He tightened his grip on my hand as we passed Blake who was icing his face in the corner of the room. We walked out the front doors safe and sound till we finally made it to Harry's car. He opened the door for me to jump into the passengers side then he made his way to the drivers seat. We drove in silence. Not an awkward silence, but a nice silence.

After driving down the street we finally reached Harry's house. We both got out of the car, closed the door and made our way to the front door to his large house. We walked inside and I looked in the living room to see Anne and Harry's step-father sitting on the couch cuddle up as they watched the television. Anne looked up to see who was at her door and her face fell immediately as her eyes laid on Harry's face.

"Oh my god, Harry!" She jumped up, ran to her up little boy and touched his cuts and bruises causing him to flinch.

"I'm fine mum." He reassured her.

"No you're not." She said in panic.

"Mum, I was just at the gym and I was boxing a few people. You should see their faces." He smirked.

"You need to stop going there." She said with worry clearly in her voice.

"No." Harry plainly responded and walked away from his mother.

"I'm sorry for him." I said to Anne before following Harry up the stairs.

Harry walked into his room and turned around to look at me. He just stared into my eyes then raked up and down my body a couple of times.

"I'm going to miss this," He looked at me getting closer. "I'm going to miss you."

"I'm going to miss you as well." I smiled sadly knowing how much I'm going to suffer without him near me.

"I love you Anna. So so much." He smiled as he stood in front of me.

"I love you Harry." I replied honestly.

Harry wrapped his arms around my torso and I wrapped my smaller ones around his neck. I could stay like this forever if I could. Just standing here with Harry's embrace whenever I need it. He's just always there and I love him for that.

Just as I started thinking about everything that may happen to Harry and I soon, my phone started buzzing. I took it out from my back pocket and checked the name on my screen. Lauren what the fuck does she want?

"Yes Lauren?" I spat.

"Heard your parents split." She said in a tone I couldn't read.

"Yeah.." I trailed off.

"Sorry." She surprised me by showing sympathy.

"Um I-"

"Don't say anything," She interrupted. "I'm being so pathetic right now by feeling bad for you so don't fucking ruin it. Bye." She spat hanging up the phone.

I didn't even get offended because I was still in shock that Lauren had any other feelings besides 'be cruel to everyone'.

"What did she say?" He asked.

"She said sorry for my parents."

"Oh," His colours flushed. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to bring it up."

"It's fine." I reassured him even though I was falling apart inside.

It was about 5 in the evening and I was beginning to get teary eyed knowing I was closer to my moving day. I still had many things to figure out like how I'm getting there, a moving truck, where I'm staying and all that shit.

"I need to go." I said to Harry letting a tear fall but quickly catching it before he noticed.

"But..." He said looking hurt.

"Come help me?" I asked. its worth a shot.

He looked deeply into my eyes and nodded as he held my hand leading me to his door. We got out of his room and made our way down the flights of large stairs. I looked in the kitchen and saw Anne cooking as Louis and Josh sat in the living room watching the television. I let go of Harry's hand and walked into the living room to say goodbye to two of my good friends.

"Louis. Josh." I said their names to grab their attention.

"Mhm?" They both mumbled keeping their eyes on the telly.

"Look," I made them focus on me. "I need to tell you something." I let my tear slide not bothering to hide it.

"Woah why are you crying?" Josh panicked a bit.

"Please tell me Harry didn't knock you up?" Louis pleaded.

"Oh my god," I laughed thought the tears. "No. He didn't."

"Then what is it?" Louis asked.

"I'm-I'm moving. Far away. I really don't want to go knowing I'm leaving you guys and everything that I love but I have to. its for my education and I need this. I love you both very much and I will miss you so much." I rambled through my mini sobs.

I felt Harry's arms wrap around my

waist, I turned toward him and cried into his chest. The worst pain you can experience is seeing how much pain you put people through by telling them something they don't want to hear.

"W-What?" Josh was now standing.

"No you can't." Louis looked hurt as well.

"I have to." I replied.

They both looked at their feet in sadness. Louis sat back on the couch, head in hands and elbows on knees. Josh was standing in front of me looking so flabbergasted at the fact that I'm leaving. I hate this part. knowing I'm leaving these guys for at least 4 years with minimal visits a month. I hate this.

"I'm sorry." I said running out of the house and down the street.

"Anna!" I heard Harry yell.

I kept running. I didn't stop. I wanted to think about this for a little while or else ill break down. I may miss these amazing people but I will not let anyone ruin these dreams I've had since I was a young girl.

I ran a ran until I reach a park that nobody was in. I stare out to look at the little park as I stop on the fluffy grass. I'm going to lose my fucking mind if I keep this up. The tears now pricked my eyes and I fell down to my knees. I put my head in my hands and cried in the middle of a park. God I'm such a loser. I'm pathetic and I don't deserve Harry. I don't deserve him because I don't feel I even deserve myself. The pain that I cause myself is excruciating. I'm drowning myself in my own hurtful thoughts and its killing me.

"Anna," I looked up to see Harry's caring face looking right at me as he knelt in front of me. "It's okay to be upset because I definitely am but running away won't help."

"I know." I sighed with a sniffle. "I just can't love myself anymore Harry. Its not all about the moving shit anymore. I don't deserve you. you're way too good for me. And know this is random for what I should be depressed about right now but I don't care. I like nothing about my personality, I'm not the best looking and I don't care for myself like you care for yourself. I'm pathetic." I said.

I was now sat in front of Harry pouring my feelings, in a park, the day before I leave. This shit is not going well for me.

///authors note///

Ill post really soon. sorry for the shitty chapter.