Unwanted Attention

Chapter 33

LONGER/SAD CHAPTER 😱

Read at your own risk.

I was in a weird mood when I wrote this.

Sorry if it offends you.

•Anna's p.o.v•

I woke up the next day feeling the exact same as any other day. I woke up feeling like shit. It seems to be the same routine everyday. Wake up, put on a fake smile and pretend to love life.

"Harry?" I call and pat the side of my bed to feel nothing but paper.

It was a note and it read:

Anna,

I'm sorry that I couldn't be there when you woke up but Louis real mum has passed and I really needed to be there for him. I really didn't want to wake you because I knew you needed the sleep and you looked so peaceful. Call when you wake up.

Love you

Harry

He is so fucking sweet and I have no idea what I did to deserve him. I love him so much but I don't know how much longer he will love me. I know that one day he's going to find someone more beautiful, someone with a better body, better sense of humour and best of all, someone who actually thinks they are worth being with him. Someone that thinks they are worth being in this world.

Since I was around 8, this voice in the back of my mind is always telling me to do something that I know I shouldn't do. Right now it's telling me to do something I haven't done in over a year. It's telling me to cut away the pain, to hurt myself and maybe even kill myself this time to make everyone happy. I feel like I'm just not worth what Harry tells me I am. I think a cut won't do anything, will it?

"No! You can't start this shit again," I try to tell myself but the voice tells me differently.

I need to call someone. I need him. I need Harry. Before I knew it I was dialling his number and it was ringing.

"Hello beautiful,"

"Hi," I replied.

"Are you okay..?" He asked, no concerned.

"No. I'm actually, really not okay," I sigh. "I feel like I don't need to be here, Harry. What's the point? I'm not important to anyone, right? So what's the point of being here when nobody really fucking cares?"

•Harry's p.o.v•

"I care! Anna, don't do something you'll regret!" I said in worry as Josh stared at me.

I covered the part that I speak into of my cell phone and started speaking to Josh. "Go call 911 and send them to Michigan state university, girls rooms, room 121, now!" And with that he ran up the stairs to call.

I grabbed my car keys, slipped on my shoes and ran to my car immediately. I hopped in and started to drive a long way but I don't care. I need to make sure she is okay.

"Want to know how I feel Harry? want to know how I've been feeling since I was 8 years old?" She laughs and not a happy laugh at that. "Well... I've been feeling lost and I've been feeling like no one cares... not even my own mother. I feel like life has taken me, threw me into the water and watched me drown. And you wanna know the sick part? I can see everyone around me but they don't see me. They don't even fucking notice me, they just watch me drown without even knowing it. But you know what, Harry? I'm done drowning. I'm done putting on these fake fucking smiles and acting as though everything is okay when it's not. I really don't want to live here anymore. Heaven sounds so much better then this hell I'm living,"

"Anna, listen to me and listen good. You're perfect to me and I will not let you hurt yourself. You're better than that and you know you are. You need to beat this. I've been through this kind of depression before and now I need you to be strong for me and yourself, okay?" I wipe a tear that fell from my eye. "Don't hurt yourself Anna,"

"The mind wants what the mind wants. I love you Harry. Never forget me,"

And that's when the line went dead.

••Authors Note••

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