The day you left

I'll be there for you

He looked out of the window and shortly after doing that, he stood up and went towards the doors. He gave me a quick glance and smiled.

When I couldn't see him anymore I let out a sigh and looked away from the window.

Looking at his handsome face made me forget about Chase so fast, but even if it being just for a brief moment.

Why is that?
I was still in love with Chase!
Then why couldn't I look away from him? It was as if his gaze was hypnotizing me and I just could not resist.
Sometimes I don't even understand my own feelings, making me angry at myself.

I got off the train and went the way I usually go.
I walked through a small street, thirteen minutes away from my flat. I finally made it home. Not long after arriving I get a Text from Anna...

‹hey...
      hi?›
‹Jess, can I ask you something?
Like...on the phone? I have to talk to you...now.
      ok? Eh sure. I'll be phoning
      you.›
What happened? I looked at my phone and shortly after calling her.

*faint crying *
"Anna?!"
*no reply*
"Anna? What happened? Talk to me please!"
"..H-he cheated on me..." she sobbed.
"Matt?"
"Yes.."
"Why? I mean, you guys were two years together! Nearly shouting at her in disbelief. Are you sure? Are you sure it was him?"

Why was I so upset about it?
If it happened to one of my other few friends, I just get slightly annoyed.
I hate sounding like I'm a bad person because how I sometime react differently to some things. I just hate it, but now I am angry mixed with a bit of sadness. I thought about Chase.
Could he be cheating on me?
But he isn't that type of guy...
...Matt wasn't that type either...

Some time passes and I am still talking to her, my best friend.
"Can you come over?" she said after a while.
"Uhm..it is three am. I do-"
"Pleeease? I need you..please?"
She sounded really rough from the crying, but I just couldn't say no to her. Well, I guess I'm not completely cold-hearted.

"..ok."
"Thank you sooo much Jessi!"
She hung up.
I sighed again.
I was so tired, but I just can't sleep.

My body feels so heavy.
My mind was filling up with questions, that I wanted answers to.

What are you doing right now?
Where even are you?
Can I see you again?
I miss him so much, but should I just forget him?
What should I do?

I closed my eyes and stared at my wall. I don't really go out again, but my friend is going through a hard time now. Like me, she lost the person, she loved and cared for such a long time.
I stood up and after taking my key, that I threw on my bedsheets, I went outside in the dark night, to the person who needed me the most right now.