The day you left

Holding onto sanity

"Do you want to stay for the night?" She kindly asked in a quiet voice.

Anna was still feeling regretful for doing something so wrong like that, but I am at the point now that I forgive and forget, so it won't matter anymore.

I took her offer and followed her into her house. She left me standing in her room to get food for the two of us. She shouted if I wanted a Pizza or something else maybe. I couldn't think of anything other than that so I agreed on her suggestion.

"Yes, sounds good!" I shouted so she could hear me from the the kitchen.

I tossed the bag I had with me, inside it having a night top and trousers. I did expected for her to ask if I could stay, why I don't particularly know, but I had that feeling.
Every time I come to her house ends up of me staying there.

The room was plastered with pictures of her and moments in her life she had with her family and me.

"Jessie, you are like a sister to me!"

Echoing in my mind those words she said...

We were only little, but I still remember the warm feeling I got inside, after Anna had said that.

In the corner of my eye, I noticed somebody standing by the door.
I turned my head towards it and saw Anna smiling in my direction.

She noticed that I was looking at the photos on her wall and came to the bed, sitting next to me.

"You still have that piece of memory on your wall where we had our holidays spent in that summer camp," I said, nudging her shoulder in a playful kind of way.

She was laughing for a bit and then she fell into silence not that long after.

I placed my head on her shoulder and rested it for a while there.

We stayed in place before she broke the silence with a word I didn't expected from her to say right now.

"Sorry..."

"..."

Lost for words, I only could take her in my arms.

She puts her arms on my back, me finally finding words to say again, I answered her with a simple "It's ok, Anna".

We separated and started after a long time, thinking on what to do for the night.

I was so happy that I had a good time there, that feeling of things going right, that feeling I didn't have for a long time...

We watched movies while eating pizza and we did that till three in the morning.

I just want to sleep...

-

The next day I woke up and made my way, stumbling towards the bathroom.

My clothes dropping softly on the floor, I went into the shower.

I sighed.

A shower means basically a bit of washing your body and stuff for like five to ten minutes and the rest of me just thinking about something.

So that is exactly what I did.

It annoyed me seeing him with another girl.

It is fine for him to have female friends, but they were laughing so much and they were really close from what I saw, when I walked, a bit further away, passed them.

I felt like I was one of those lovers that get really jealous and I hated it.
I am maybe a tiny bit jealous, but...

I turned the shower off and stepped carefully out.
I wrapped a towel around my body and my hair, leaving the bathroom and seeing Anna eating a bowl of cereal.

I sat next to her in my towel and had breakfast with her.
Well It was actually nearly lunchtime, but I was still having toast and tea.

I thanked her for the stay and gave her a hug.
When I was home I saw someone at my doorstep, probably waiting for me...

I recognized who he was, when I was only a few steps away from him.