Shes broken

Part -1-

'Waking up in such darkness is giving me depression ... if you think Im naturally depressed im sorry to say that youre wrong

Hey! even if I live in hell doesn't mean im depressed... I don't like being sad, it's a waste of my time, I have little time to rest cause if im not in school, im working , if im not working im in the library studying cause I don't want to lose my scholarship, I don't want my parents to worry about it.

I was thinking if I should get another job, so I wont be home often, my parents don't like it anyways so why bother them, or why bother me?'

I woke up, did my morning routine, brushed my teeth, showered, brushed ny teeth, I went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast, but unfortunately i bump into my mother.

"morning mother" I said, she turned around looking at me in disgust , I ignored.
"Do you want to eat with me?" she looked away and then walked upstairs as if I wasn't even there.

'Hah .. im used to it anyway, why do I feel hurt every time she does this '

I took the bus leaving early so I could study alittle before my morning classes, and of course so I wont stay with the devils in hell (where im living).

I went to my class room waiting for school to begin so it could end, so I would go to my part time job and then wish it will end , so I could go home, see the same scenery over and over again ,sneaking to my bedroom waiting till the next day to start .

My thoughts were cut when someone entered the classroom being hot as eff ( if you know what I mean) if I didn't mention he's my crush since the beginning of the year but nothing serious.

I don't talk much cause i'm always busy ... I don't have time for social life.

"morning" he said waving at me.
"morning" I replied then stared at him finishing my sentence "not to be creepy but you look handsome if you don't already know" I continued reading as he was shocked from hearing my complement (but seriously he's so handsome with his tall body, board shoulders, black hair covering his forehead and his hazel eyes sparkling)

"th-thank y-you" he replied with his blushing cheeks as if I confessed my love to him 'HELLO, I'm just honest, don't feel so special'.

"why don't you talk to people" he asked, I glared at him surprised from his question. "I-I me-an, you're so cute, pretty, smart, you're nice and straight forward" he said hesitatingly.

"Are you flirting with me" i joked.
He shook his head and his cheeks became a dark shade of pink.
I laughed "i don't have time for people that's all"

He realized that he was standing so he sat down, It became awkward as hell, but then our class mates including my best friend Arial came in, i thanked god for his blessing.

"hey Arial" I said waving, i didn't realize that she wasc running in my direction squeezing me in a tight hug.

"I can't breathe"

"Oh. i'm sorry, I just miss you, I miss you a lot, we don't get to hang out"

"You know my situation so-"

I felt that what I said caught the handsome man's attention (his name is Jake btw. in case you're wondering how did I know, simple I have a crush on him, a girl is FBI when she needs her information)

"I'm gonna kill your parents, UGHHH!" Arial said as she caught him looking at us, he blushed and turned around shyly.

Arial smirked and I knew she had a bad idea in her mind

"Arial what are you thinking?"

I got a smile as a reply..