Shes broken

Part -14-

"Okay..." I turned because I didn't want him to see me crying -again-

"yah, don't misunderstand, I will tell you when I'm ready"

"I don't have the right to know, I like Jake remember?" I lied, I liked him, but if he has a girlfriend then I should not ruin their relationship, I looked over my shoulder then continued, "if you told me you had a girlfriend, I wouldn't have been that close to you, I respect relationships, I don't want to ruin yours" I said, but I couldn't stay still, he would know the I'm crying, so I decided to run.

I ran away as fast as I could, I heard him shouting and running after me  "she's .....".
He couldnt catch me even if he tried, im way too fast and way too experienced in hiding.

"I'm sorry Michael, I'm so sorry, I know you wouldn't like what I will do" I mumbled.

I was running looking at my feet moving until I bumped into someone.

"Jake" I mumbled with red eyes, I looked like a raccoon.

"what's wrong?" he said but I was too focused on his necklace, I heart but it had a gap, a gap looked like teeth of a key, it had a familiar design yet so unique, it stuck in my mind.

"Yah, what's wrong?" he repeated waving his hand infront of my face.

"Nothing, umm... I have to go, I'll talk to you later -maybe-" I said running out of the school, at that moment the only thing that was on my mind, I needed to stay alone, I didn't want to see him or her.

*Three days after*

I disappeared, yeah I really did it, I know it's childish but that way I can think, I bought the house I worked so hard to save for, I turned off my phone -yeah I know three days without a phone must be hell, but I was fine-, I missed school, it's okay, I'm the top student, I can get the A pluses with my eyes closed, and I can be absence -I used to do assignments that give extra credit so I can exchange them with absences, I know it's not allowed but I'm one of the richest students so they would never say no to whatever I had to say-, I told my boss at work that I will miss for the time being, and that I would call when I wanted to go back -my boss loved me cause I always worked over time for free, i clean the place and lock it before I leave, so she agreed without hesitation-.

I worked on my talents: drawing, DIY, playing the guitar while singing, most importantly writing, all kinds of writing, poems, songs, and my thoughts.

i spent my time in a restaurant on a mountain, it had a breathtaking view, so I wrote everything I had in mind, the weird thing is: I never know what I'm thinking until I write it..

-Dd/mm/yy-

You missed me, you got drunk, You weren't thinking straight, The only thing that was on your mind was Me, You couldn't help but text me, Cause you missed every little detail, You wanted everything like it used to be, You were thinking that life is cruel, It turned its back on you, You felt like you are never enough, Never good enough, Never smart enough, you are at your lowest point, It's so low that you can't pick yourself back up, I hurt you like no one else, I broke you, You wanted revenge, But you thought I am not worth it, So you thought you could get me back, But you messed up like you usually do, You never thought I would be so unkind that I will never forgive you, So you just went to where you belong, Disappointment filled your soul, You went back to the darkest corner of your world, Cause the sunlight burnt you bad, because you didn't have the courage to walk again, You hated home, Cause home was never home, It was walls with paint on them, To cover all the blood that you went through, You wanted your best friend back, Your homie, Your everything, When you messed up, Even the walls you lived in were damaged.

But on the other hand, Your everything was nothing, But a piece of paper, You walked pass it, Looked at it, Admired it, Then burnt it, because nothing was worth your attention, But yourself, Even if it was bright, And colorful, It had a dark shadow, That you couldn't figure out, Until it cut you ,So you burnt it because nothing is worth your blood, tears, or your sad smile.....

Maybe I is not me, Maybe its him/her, Maybe it's a friend, A father, a mother, An accident, Maybe you was me, Maybe you was her, maybe You was my imagination, When I talk, write, or Sing it's not me, It's my story -Situation, movies, books, problems, experience, and even friends-

Me, I, my life it's not always about me, It's everything I have been through.

I wrote you but it was me, I wanted to write I missed you but I knew it would bring out my weak side and the second part was what I hope everything will turn out, I hope I will end up as strong as you Im my thoughts.

Arial betrayed me, and Michael hid the fact that he had a girlfriend and now I like him but he's in a relationship, and of course I'm broken all over again.

But Jake's necklace, I know it's familiar -OH MY FREAKING GOD- it had the same design with the key my father was holding, I need to go back, I need to figure out what the hell is going on, if they fit in each other then there's a secret that must be known.