Stay (Lucaya)

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  •Maya•  

"Maya we need to talk!" Lucas shouted after me as I ran away from him for the tenth time that day alone. Riley looked at Lucas confused and then ran down the corridor after me.

I ran into Mr Matthews room and took my usual seat. I didn't want to talk to him. I didn't want to talk to anybody. I kissed Lucas. I kissed my best friends crush. She's essentially been in love with him for the past few years and I kissed him. I betrayed my best friend and even if she did forgive me I would never be able to forgive myself.

I slammed my head down on my desk and just laid there.

"What's going on with you Maya?" Riley asked crouching down next to my desk and trying to get me to lift my head.

"I'm fine." I said and smiled at her briefly before putting my head back down.

"Maya..." Lucas began as he walked into the room.

"Don't." I said looking him in the eye guiltily. "Just don't. I don't want to talk to you Ranger Rick."

"You can't ignore me forever." He said walking over to me.

"Watch me." I said and put my head back down.

"What even happened at the campfire?" Farkle asked confused.

"Your guess is as good as mine. Neither of them will talk about it." Riley said and huffed.

I felt bad for keeping things from my friends and making them feel as though I don't care about them or trust them enough to tell them but I know it would be the end of us and I didn't want that. I didn't want that for as long as I live. I don't think I'd be able to survive without Riley constantly saving me and Farkle being his weird little Farkle self and making me happy. They helped me get up on a morning and I can't lose that.

"You really wanna know?" Lucas asked. I lifted my head up immediately and started to panic.

"Don't you dare." I said standing up and looking him in the eyes.

"Maya if you won't talk to me then what's the point of the secret?" He asked.

"Alright cla - Why are Maya and Lucas having a stand off in my classroom?" Mr Matthews asked as he walked in.

"Maya just tell us what happened at the campfire." Riley almost pleaded.

"I can't. Just trust me Riley you don't want to know." I said and looked at her hopefully. I hoped she'd just forget all about this and the secret would stay a secret.

"Riley I think you need to drop it." Cory said stepping in finally. He put a hand on my back.

"All due respect Mr Matthews but I think she needs to know." Lucas spoke up.

"Lucas. You do this and I will never speak to you again." I spoke. My voice wavered. I knew I was going to cry. He was about to ruin my friendship.

"Maya she needs to know." Lucas spoke apologetically.

"Then I'm never talking to you again." I spoke coolly. I looked him in the eyes to show him just how much this was hurting me never mind him. He looked at me sympathetically but carried on anyway.

"Me and Maya kissed."

"You what?" Riley shouted.

That's when I lost it and began to cry. Farkle looked at me with sympathy. I didn't want it. I didn't deserve it.

"Lucas I thought we had something! You threw that away for my best friend? How could you do that?" Riley asked dejectedly.

"I'm really sorry." Lucas tried and scratched the back of his head.

"And you! Maya Penelope Hart! I though we were best friends?" Riley asked hurt.

"We are! Why do you think I stepped back? I pushed you onto Lucas' lap on the subway. I let you have your first love. I helped you get your first date, your first kiss. Everything! It just happened." I pleaded as Riley began to cry.

"If you're kissing the boy I love then you aren't even a friend let alone a best friend. Why would you throw away everything for a stupid kiss?"

"Because I love him too! It just happened! I love him Riley and I don't deserve him you do. I will never forgive myself for this but I love him and I can't hide that. I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you."

"You lost me the minute you kissed Lucas. I will NEVER forgive you." Riley spoke and sat down crossing her arms.

"You told me nothing could come between us. You told me that it was us forever! You promised to stay!" I was shouting now but my anger took over.

"Why would I stay with someone who plans to hurt me and betrays me and doesn't even want to tell me about it?"

"You're my best friend Riley! I can't lose you please don't let me lose you." I pleaded full on sobbing.

"Not anymore. I hate you Maya Hart. I never want to speak to you again." She said, almost evilly.

I looked at her, to a sorry looking Lucas and to a sympathetic Farkle and then to Mr Matthews who just looked confused and sorry and like he didn't know what to think.

"I can't do this." I said and ran out of the classroom, Mr Matthews and the boys shouting after me.

I ran to my safe place. Where I can think, even if we aren't friends anymore I needed to go to the bay window.