2 Loves; s.w&d.l (BWWM)

5. conclusions, delusions and hallucinations.

a/n ~ this is the last chapter I hope you enjoy this. For something less fluffy, read the next book - which will be short again - called "2 phones". Weird title but it will tie in with the story.
Thank you.
a/n (like 2 years later): tf was I talking about I'm sorry. This is utter shite😂.

I've made my decision. I've made up my mind. I know what I'm going to do. I try to sound so positive when really I'm heart broken. I have to put one down and make them feel more insignificant compared to the other, which is so not true. I went with the one I felt if I don't choose, I would regret not giving it a chance.

"Hello,"
"It's you."
Sam's face lit as I told him what I really felt about him. How it was in my heart that I would never forgive myself if I didn't go out with him.

I don't know why but there was just something about him. His eyes. His smile. I know it took a while to realise, yet, he's waited all this time. I'm so thankful for his patience. To find patience in someone nowadays is tough.
"What do you mean, "it's me," Kyann?"
"I want to be with you. You've always been there for me since I moved here when I was 9. You always used to stick up for me when someone used to make fun of my hair, or weight, or my accent even. Never knew a 9 year old could be discriminated against for her British accent. You were always there to cheer me up when I was sad, or was there for me whenever I was lonely. And this reason is why this all makes sense to me is that you would still do this for me in a heartbeat now. And I love you for that."

A brief silence filled the room as the syllables sank into our flesh that was between our ears.
The silence became too long. I felt like he wasn't ready for us. All the anxiety came to me thinking the most dreadful shit ever.
What if he doesn't love you?
What if he only wants you for sex or to be a maid and doesn't actually want to be with you?
What if he just wants you for the fun of it? Or your fame?
Publicity?
Get one up on someone?
Derek.
The biggest wave of guilt washed over my body. Shit.
"What, baby?" Sam says to be beaming brightly ear to ear. Like how Derek does whenever he sees- well saw me.
"You're not turning back on me now, aren't you?" Worry evident in his eyes.
"No, I just have to do something." And with that, I rushed out his house to the one that really was on my mind when they really shouldn't be.
He's going to break. He's going to lose it.

a/n - I'm sorry I haven't updated in months but I'm currently doing my GCSEs and taking time to study and do m work. This book is coming along slowly but surely, my friend.
~ STAY FLEEKY💖