2 Loves; s.w&d.l (BWWM)

3. confrontation

I was getting ready to go out to go see Sam when my phone buzzed. Derek's name came across my phone screen. "Hello," I belowed into the mic as the phone was on speaker. I finished applying my lipstick when he asked for me to come over. I fix myself in the mirror, grabbed my keys and purse and flew out the door to my car.
When I got to his house, the door was already open and I found my best friend in his living room. I gave him a tight hug as we sat down on the settee. "So what did you want?"
"Um, yeah. Kyann, uh, I just wanted to tell you. I like you -"
"I like you too! I wouldn't be your friend otherwise-" I smiled at his slightly frustrated face.
"No. Like I like you. Ever since I saw you at the studio and you getting signed, I fell in love with you. Just wasn't sure until a couple of days ago. Kyann, I'd jeopardise our friendship for us. A relationship. I love you."
I love you. The words conflicted me. I do love Derek but do I want to take the chance and potentially ruin our friendship. I was speechless. He looked in my eyes. Searching with hope for desire. My tears filled as I rushed to the door.
"Kyann!"
I get in my car and drive to Sam's house. I checked my face in the car mirror to make it seem like I wasn't crying. As I get to the door, it's locked and I have to knock. A few minutes later, a scared Sam popped out.
"I thought you weren't coming,"
"Sorry, I had to see Derek."
The warm, welcoming smile fades away and quite disengaging look played upon his face. "Derek, huh?"
"Yeah, why?"
"Kyann, I need to tell you something. I, I love you. I want to be with you. That day you moved next door to my house, I felt butterflies and knots rummaging around my stomach. I was just a little boy but I knew. I knew I had feelings stronger than titanium for you. It's like the love is never ending and I just wanted to know if you would be my girlfriend?"
Uh. The words lodged in my throat made it hard to breathe. All my senses were shut off and I wasn't aware of everything around me. Sam was talking words at me but was I really listening? Or was I just thinking how can two men - who I have a crush on both; one from elementary school and one for about 2 years - love me?