Fairy problem

Sylvia Fullbuster

Drowning....I could still remember how it felt as I lost my breath underneath the water I could feel my lungs begin to collapse all over again I reach out for someone who can't reach my hand as I sink to the sea bellow

That's how it felt in the circus circus challenge being afraid of my own magic being afraid of water what kind of water Mage if afraid of her own magic how could I get over this on the outside I let everyone think I'm fine as I keep my fear to myself the guild had more things to worry about then my fear of water...I look at my room in the hotel next challenge is tomorrow thankfully I'm not participating in them anymore since I did during Circus Circus but what if Rin does how will be defend himself without the ability of using his magic his not exactly...intelligent...I laugh to myself I'm a horrible sister a horrible twin I look at my hands which where sweating from the nervousness and fear of sleeping it was eleven a clock and I should've been sleeping but I couldn't ever since Circus Circus I could no longer sleep without imagining myself drowning in my own magic or Rin collapsing from me not being able to help him or I kept seeing everyone walk away I felt like a failure but I knew I couldn't let that get to me everyone else are disappointed I can't let myself also be I make my hands into fists "okay"I say out loud before laying down "I'm not going to give into my fear"I say and close my eyes ready for my sleep to come...in a matter of seconds I fall fast asleep

( gomenasai I know it's a really short chapter but I couldn't think of what to right down according to Sylvia's fear so I tried sorry well until next time Eve out)