11.
I woke up inside my room and my head feels like it is getting pierced. I think I'm sick but oh well I have no plans so I guess I'll be staying at our house. I decided to just ask for my breakfast to get delivered inside my room, this is the perks of staying at my mom's house, I get to do what I want and get to have what I want. I went to my veranda and sat near my coffee table, I've never felt like this before, the light feeling I never had for the past year.
2 weeks have passed since a lot has changed. 2 weeks since all of my drama ended. Or did it really end? 2 weeks of letting myself experience my real worth and value, thanks to Suho who happens to understand everything I've been through, and now I've never been this happier. Well, not that happy-happy, I mean almost happy, you know the kind of happiness wherein you felt happy but not yet completely happy? Gosh.
The best thing that happened to me in these past week is that I can finally breathe peacefully, I mean I am already assured that there's always people who's willing to be there for me through thick and thin, cheesy right? I also have reflected and considered all my wrong doings as a lesson. And I actually find it funny that I'm saying this. It's so not me.
Ever since Suho agreed to take care of me, I promised him that I will try reciprocating his feelings. I loved him before so I guess it will be easy this time.
Of course it will never be easy, especially that I am sure that I love my brother more than I am supposed to. But there's nothing wrong in trying right?
My phone rang so I decided to go inside my room to check if there are any messages, but it turns out it is just Baekhyun whining about his missing eyeliner, typical Baekhyun being the gayest person he'll ever be. I was about to reply when another message popped up, and made my heart stopped from beating.
Fr. Jongin
Can I see you today?
I ignored his text. I've been receiving nonstop texts and calls from him ever since my dad introduced us as brothers.
He wanted to see me yet I don't think I'm ready, that's what I've been thinking all along.
What should I do?
I felt my phone vibrating again. I looked down and saw Jongin sent me another text.
Fr. Jongin
Seriously, stop avoiding me. I won't let you get away.
And with that, I know that he will really not let me get away with this. But still, I should not meet him, seeing he will be a total chaos between my mind and heart. I ignored his text once again and went to the bathroom to take a bath.
I spent almost 30 minutes inside my tub, after finishing my bath, I went to my closet to get pajamas because I won't be leaving the house, I might as well enjoy being a couch potato the whole day.
The next months will be the busiest days of my life because I am now officially the CEO of our company; I feel excited and at the same time tensed.
I was in the middle of my thoughts when my phone rang again, I looked at the caller ID and it's Jongin again. I was about to reject the call when he hung up which made me raised a brow. I was about to leave my phone on my bed when he called again, I just answered.
"WHAT THE FUCK JONG—"
"Do not say anything and listen to me." He cut me off with his dominant voice.
"You have no right—"
"I SAID SHUT UP, OKAY?" He shouted at me which made me flinched, unfortunately it really made me shut up.
"I will see you in your condo in 2 hours, and you better show your face there. Do you understand?" I did not respond because why would I? I won't go there anyway.
"Do you fucking understand what I'm saying?"
"ANSWER ME KYUNGSOO!" He shouted once again which made me jumped out of panic.
"OKAY FINE! You better not waste my time asshole." I told him and hung up.
Geez, he's truly getting on my nerves. What does he want now? Can't he just understand that what we're doing before is a fucking sin because we're brothers?
Did he have a fight with Eunji that's why he's bothering me? Is he going to use me again? Goddamn it I'm tired of all his bullshits, I'm done with that kind of life, and I'm trying to change here.
I changed my clothes again and grabbed my wallet and car keys. It's better to be there early so that I can prepare myself, I decided to grab this opportunity to give Jongin a closure. I should do this right? For me to be able to love Suho the way I wanted to.
I went downstairs and I saw Suho sitting on our couch in the living room. He smiled at me and then raised a brow.
"Where are you going?" He asked.
"Uh- Just gonna grab some stuffs in my condo." I will not tell him I'm going to meet Jongin there.
"You want me to come with you?"
"No. I'll be back before dinner, will you wait for me?" I kissed his cheek, assuring him I will be fine.
"Yeah of course, I'll go straight here after my work; I just wanted to see you." He grabbed my waist and I lightly punched his shoulders. He smiled at me and stole a kiss.
"Wait. Are you sick?" He asked and put his hand on my forehead. He immediately cringes, which made me laugh because he looks ugly.
"I'm fine Suho-ssi, don't look at me like that." I told him because he'll probably ask me to stay inside the house and just rest.
"Okay. Just drink your medicines. I'll go now, ask your driver to just give you a ride. I love you." He told me, I nodded and gave him a deep kiss.
I asked our maid to go get our driver because I will be leaving, I went inside my car and asked my driver to drive me to my condo.
As the ride went on I can't stop myself from thinking of what will happen or what will I say to Jongin. This is probably one of the hardest things I will ever do, me leaving him was quite a big decision for me to face. But this is for the better.
I arrived at my condo building and went straight to the elevator. I guess Jongin haven't arrived yet. I walked to my unit and punched the passcode on my lock.
As soon as I opened my knob, long arms and hungry lips welcomed me.
"I missed you. Very much."
