Before I Go

Here we go again

I return home form the hospital in a cast from the accident. My family put a little welcoming home party together. It seems like I have way too many of these. They say they aren't sure how much longer they will have with me is why they have put so many together but I thinks it's their excuse to cover up the fact that they weren't there for me when I first got sick.

I get out of the car trying to mentally and physically get myself together. Put on show, let them know I'm doing fine and all is well. When really on the inside I'm having a mental break down. I slowly walk inside and see pink and white Lilly's everywhere. My favorite flowers of course! The next thing my eyes focus on are all of the people, more then usual! Either there is bad news that comes along with this 'party' or they are all just glad to see me safe.

"Surprise! Welcome back Haven!" They all say in sync after I was finished looking around. I just smiled and look towards a small group of my friends!

"Thank you!"

Bethany and Caitlyn walk up to me and give me a huge. I walk towards a few of my family members but stumble over something in the floor. When I look down there was nothing there. Just my clumsy self I guess. Probably because this cast is too heavy, makes it harder to walk. A see few people laughing, I just continue to walk but change my direction over towards Harry, Alison, Marine and the guys.

"So who's idea was it this time?!" I look at them in disapproval but smile through my snarky comment.

"Well if you must know my love, it was all me!" Harry says with a smirk and slight sarcasm in his voice.

"We missed our Haven, we thought you needed some quality time away from your room and the hospital." Niall says sweetly

"aww how considerate you guys! Seriously though this isn't what I wanted. I appreciate the thought and effort." With a slight attitude

"Haven stop! You just got the best news since this all began, you need to celebrate and quit moping around like your world is burning down. Stop putting your life on pause and start living it! This is for the best!" Harry says. He looks upset so I walk away before I make it worse. I act like I am happy for rest of evening, later once a few people had left I went to the back patio,where it was less crowded, to relax and think about what Harry had said earlier. In a way he was right and I wish I listened to him more often.

My father was cooking on the grill and mom (God mother) was in kitchen making some desert that Harry and Taylor was helping with.

"Haven sweetie will you go into the kitchen and get me two plates and pair of tongues?" My father asked me

"Yea sure."

I walk into the hall straight to the living room then turn a left towards the kitchen.

"Can you hand me two plates and a pair of tongues please?" I ask anyone standing in the kitchen. 
Harry grabs two plates and tongues then hands them to me.

"Thanks Harry!" I say with a big smile and he just looks at me with disgust. I knew he was upset  with me  but I'm not sure exactly why.

I hand my father the plates and tongues and go into the living room.

Once everyone was done eating we all prayed in hopes everything  goes well with the surgery and my new treatment as well as my mother healing well.

Once most everyone was gone I asked Harry and the girls to go night swimming in the back pool. Everyone agreed but Harry. I went to my bed room to pull on my black one piece
swim suit, Harry and they guys helped me pick out last summer right before we found out how bad my condition was.