Anorexia's deceiving lies

Skinny Bones

Skinny Bones

I wanted to experience.
But it led to an addiction.
3 full meals a day,
To nothing at all...

I looked in the mirror
To see nothing but fat.
I saw pictures of models
And thought I want to be exactly like that.

I wanted to eat less,
But ate nothing instead.
"Don't eat, don't eat"
This little voice said.

I was afraid of food
Afraid of gaining weight.
If I didn't find help
It might have been too late.

Thoughts of suicide
Running through my head.
"Why am I here?"
I wanted to be dead.

I danced a blade across my wrist.
I watched as the blood had now started to drip.
I knew I'm suffering in nothing but pain,
I knew it all, but my tears would still slip.

I didn't talk with anyone.
I pushed people away.
I cried my self to sleep.
I cried night and day.

My bones started to show.
I had constipation.
My hair started to fall.
It was nothing but frustration.

Others saw skin and bones
But fat was all I see.
They told me I was too thin,
Why can't they let me be?

Fainting when I stand
I was now too weak.
Afraid to ask help,
I just couldn't speak.

The next thing you know
I'm on a hospital bed.
So many needles in my arm.
I just couldn't be fed.

My father worried a lot,
My grandma would even cry
I felt sorry for them both
As their only daughter might die.

I finally got help.
I stopped my addiction
Anorexia ruined my life.
I was no longer in affliction.

By: Shenuri Fernando