SEX YOU one | bts

chapter | 17

| jimin's point of view

The boy clearly had a weakness and it was the reason why he kept coming back.

Flipping through the pages of an outdated magazine, he waited for the nurse. She was taking quite some time and Jimin was not a very patient person but he tried to hold it in with the hopes of seeing Soo Jin again.

When the nurse came back, he quickly hid the piece of gum deep in his pockets. Jimin rose to his feet and asked her about Soo Jin.

"Sorry but she doesn't want to see you. She said she's not feeling well enough to talk to you." The nurse relayed her message then returned to the charts of the other patients she was attending to before he arrived.

"Wait!" The boy caught the nurse's arm, "Let me talk to her please."

Soo Jin has been keeping herself locked inside her room for days. I don't know what was wrong with her lately? Is she trying to kill me by making me worry? The nurse said she's been really hard to deal with and that she would have problems sleeping. She refused to touch her food and becomes irritable when she was given her medicines.

"Sorry but that's not possible." The nurse replied, keeping her responsibilities in mind.

I took some bills from my jacket's pocket and conveniently slipped it on her hand, "I can give you more. Just let me talk to her."

As expected, money fixes everything.

The corridor was quiet because the patients were just served lunch in their rooms. Nobody was allowed to roam in the afternoon not until 4 o'clock. I could imagine why Soo Jin hated this place. She hated being alone and restricted.

"This is her room."  We stopped in front of a simple white door, "You can only be in there for 20 minutes. That's all the time I can buy you."

I dug my hands in my pocket once again and gave her bribe money, "Thanks."

The doorknob turned without a sound. She was curled up in her bed. Her food was on the table beside her, untouched.

"Soo Jin-ah." I started as I sat beside her, my hands going through her soft hair, waking her up, "Soo Jin?"

Her eyes fluttered open. She looked at me with a blank expression. My heart broke right there. She used to be our happy pill. She used to smile at everything but now Soo Jin was losing herself. Did I do this to her? Was this my fault? I only wanted her to get better.

"Soo Jin, what's wrong?" I touched her cheek but she slapped my hand away.

"You lied to me!" She sat up and yelled at me all of a sudden, hitting my chest weakly. "You told me he loved me!" She was having another tantrum again, sending punches at my chest but she was too weak.

"For fuck's sake, not this again, Soo Jin." I easily grabbed her arm to stop her from hitting me, "Yoongi! Yoongi! He's all you ever talk about!"

Soo Jin ceased her sobs, startled that I raised my voice at her. I never raise my voice at her but lately I was feeling the burden of everything on my shoulders. My mind was so full that I have nowhere to escape to.

"Why do I feel like I'm losing you?" I looked her in the eye, reaching for her face, "Tell me what I should do.."

She only stared at me. She's so beautiful; why can't I have her? Why can't I be the one she love?