Jason's P.O.V
Fuck! I keep thinking Vanessa's cheating on me. There's just something that's telling me that she is but her eyes aren't. But I know kemar wouldn't do that to me no matter who it is. So it makes me think other wise. Condoms? "Vanessa, we got so close you not going to say goodbye?" Everything isn't making sense. And she just left, what if she's at his house fucking him? I started thinking the worst. I went into the kitchen getting my bottle of Vodka. I needed to relax.
2 hours later
I heard the door close and I woke up with a big buzz. I got up still remembering that I thought she was cheating on me. I got up and went up to her. She kissed me but didn't kiss me, but I didn't kiss back. I knew I was drunk but I tried to keep my composure. "Are you cheating with me with kemar?" I said in a slurred way. "Really Jason? I said no already." She tried walking past me but I stopped her. "Answer me!" "Your too drunk to be having an argument let go to bed and talk this over tomorrow." She grabbed my wrist and tried pulling me along with her. I stood in the same place. "Were not going to sleep until you tell me the truth." As I pushed her against the wall. "I'm going to ask you one more time. Lie to me again and I'll leave." As I began to wrap my hands around her neck. Her eyes were scarred and she was taking deep breaths before I choke her. We held eye contact for a while and she wasn't saying anything. Her mouth was open but nothing was coming out. Her stubbornness was getting me mad so I began to tighten my grip. She saw that I was serious and she began to say something. I loosened my grip and she took in some breaths before saying. "Yes Jason! I cheated on you with Kema-" and my hand swung at her face. When reality finally hit me I dropped to knees apologizing.
Vanessa's P.O.V
I was on the floor crying my eyes out. Did he just hit me? Anger and hurt filled up my heart. He was trying to apologize. I can't stay with this shit. I got up and so did Jason. He looked into my eyes with so much sympathy. LIES. I swung my hands against his face as hard as I can. As he was bringing his head back I swung at the other one. I began to see his chest going up and down. "What you gonna do? Hit me again? Go ahead do it. I told you that you couldn't love me. Look at you now 6 months into this relationship and you already laying your hands on me? I'm not going to be like my mother and stick around with this abusing shit. Oh and you want to know what's the best thing yet? Kemar and I fucked everyday of the week. Even the same day you were coming. Yep those were his condoms. That's my ex that I fell in love with, if that made your clueless mind feel better. And guess what your not going to be the father of my first child cause he already is." He gave me a look that I could describe from anywhere. He wanted to kill me, hurt me, do anything to make me suffer. That's the same look my dad gave to my mom when he abused my mother. The only source of light was the moon, everything was dark and quiet. I saw his body start to calm down a little. "Okay that's fine. I didn't have to be the father of your first baby even tho that's something I would like. But one thing is your not leaving me for him. I don't care if he's the father or not." As his nose was flaring. Did this man not hear I'm pregnant with another mans child?! Not just any man but my ex. "You know what the funny thing is? I cheated on you again while I was in France. I think she's pregnant." As he began to chuckle. He looked at me and a slap went straight to his left cheek. I started heading for the door saying. "Someone will be hear tomorrow to pick up my stuff. If you want you can burn them." I went outside and into my car. I started my way to my destination.
Kemar's P.O.V
I want Vanessa so bad. All I could think about was her. She was on my mind 24/7 from the day I finally knew who my friends girlfriend was.
Flashback
"Let me help you with that." As helped my little crush out. She was so quiet I wish she could speak more. "Vanessa right?" "Yeah." She said softly. She was fine. We got to her locker and she was going to take her stuff back. "How bad do you want it?" "What?" As her eyebrows started to intertwine. I let out a laugh. "I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about your text book. Take your head out of the gutter." As I continued to laugh. She laughed with me too. Her smile was beautiful. I felt some butterfly's in my stomach. "It's for class so I need it bad." "What would you give for it?" She started thinking. "A kiss on the cheek?" I knew I wanted that but I'll get that later. "You can go deeper than that." She started thinking some more. "Than..... What do you want?" I started thinking myself even though I had the answer. "Your phone number." She sighed and smiled a little. "Fine." As she rolled her eyes. She got a piece of paper and handed it to me. I gave her, her books and said. "I'll call you later." As I winked. I began to see her blush.
Our relationship began like that until.... March 11
"Nessa?" I yelled as I got into the house. I knew I didn't see her car but her friends sometimes borrows it. I headed up stairs and into the bedroom. The bed looked untouched. I searched the room and saw a note on the night stand. It read.
'Dear Kemar,
I never thought I would be doing this to you but I have no other choice. I've decided to break up with you. I found out by your homeboys that you've been sleeping with other girls and cheating on me. I gave you my heart and fell in love with you. Why would you do that. I'll always remember you, and keep you somewhere in one of the broken pieces of my heart. I hope that who ever is the next girl will give you more of their love than I did so that you can truly love them.
Love,
Vanessa
I never felt so heart broken. I that's wen I started searching her house but everything was packed all that was left was furniture and heavy stuff she couldn't take with her. I knew that she wasn't coming back. I tried to have hope to see her at school but she never came. I remember how she would always be my mentor about my smoking. I decided to quit since that's what she always told me to do. I did everything that she always wanted me to do. It hurted my heart for her not to see me progress spirtually, physically, and mentally.
Ding dong! As I hear my door bell ring.
I opened my door to see my lover standing with teary eyes. She went upstairs and into my room. "What's wrong and what are you doing?!" As I yelled up. I followed her and saw her pull out one of my blunts. "Give me a liter." She gave me that look saying if you don't I'm gonna kill you. I hurried and passed it to her. She went into my patio and went up the ladder to the roof. I grabbed myself one and followed behind her. We sat down for a good 5 minutes of silence. I observed her. She looked so beautiful. I don't know how let her slip away from me like that. "I'm not in the mood for you to stare at how ugly I am." "Your not ugly. You look so beautiful." She turned and looked at me. I knew she wanted to say something but she was going against it. "I love-" "don't start that shit with me kemar. If you really did you would have kissed me already and said everything is going to be okay." She looked up into the sky and took a swing at the blunt. She close her eyes loving the effect it had on her. I examined her and saw a tear roll down her face. I scooted next to her and held her against my chest. I felt her tears start to wet me. This reminded me of the old days with me and her. I remember when her mom died I would always come to her house and visit her. I would hold her to my chest and let her cry. "why is everything hell for me?!" As he voice cracked. "I told him we had sex." She chuckled a little bit. She was going to take a drag but I took it from her. "I think you had to much already." "Guess what. I told him I was pregnant with your baby." What?! "Your pregnant?!" "No silly! We used a condom every time!" Damn it. I wanted to jump for joy when she said she was pregnant by me. I wish though. "Did you know he told me something funny? He said while he was in France he cheated on me. And he said she's pregnant." She began to chuckle. And that chuckle turned into a laugh. "Why are you laughing?" "Because it means I get to be with you. And he can probably move to France and I won't have to worry about him." "Are you high already?!" "No." She got up off me and laid down to look up at the stars. "Which one of them told you?" "What?" "In your letter you said one of my homeboys told you. Which one?" "It's the one that started with a Z I think." "Oh. It was Zakery." She nodded her head. "I can't believe you remembered that." ".... How can I if the love of my life left one thing that had a trace of her." I took a deep swing at the blunt and let the smoke resonate a little bit into me. And I let it out through my mouth. "I was so dumb and naive Vanessa. You could of given me a chance." I then turned my head and looked down on her. "Just give me one more try. I've changed. I don't smoke how I use to anymore. I haven't been in a real relationship ever since you left. I don't know what to do. Let's take it slow. I don't want to rush. I have something that i think will prove it." I got up and went down the ladder to my patio, then into my bed room. I went into closet and took out a shoe box. I handed it to her. "That's my fate box. I always had a little fate that made me think I would see you again probably get another chance. Those are everything I would say and do. She read through them. I saw tears start to gather up in her eyes. She looked up at me and hugged me. "Even if we don't work out I will forever love you." And I kissed her forehead.
