I seen the person that I haven't seen in a while. He looked straight at me and smirked a little. He then scanned the room and his eyes landed on his mom. His smirk grew bigger as he continued walking. "Hey mom, how are you?" "Im good honey. How was your day?" "Good." He then turned and looked at his brother that was looking pissed. "What's up big bro-" "don't do that shit-" "language." As his mom stopped him. Jason let out a deep breath and tried restarting his sentence again. "So you didn't think it was smart to tell me mom and dad divorced?" "No not really you would of found out anyways." "Uhh your so Fück-" "Language!" As his mom gave him the 'glare.' "Your lucky I'm in this bed cause I would of got you already." Joshua laughed then looked at me. "You really went for him?" As he continued laughing. "Stop trying to impress. Just be you. Probably that's why no bitch don't wanna be wit you." Jason looked at his mom. "Really?! But I can't curse?! I'm older!" "You know what he does, I don't really have control of his mouth it's natural to come out from him but not you when you have a professional job." I've been quiet the whole time and during that duration I could feel Joshua staring at me. "Umm.... I'm kinda feeling hungry I'm gonna go down to the cafeteria and get something to eat. You want anything Jas?" "No." "How about you ms. Brown?" "Yes darling, can you just get me those white cheddar chees-it's?" "Yes mam." I smiled. As I was about to leave she grabbed my arm am pulled me down and whispered. "You don't need to call me mam yet. I'm not that old as you think." As she laughed. I laughed with her and nodded my head agreeing. I went out and
Headed for the cafeteria. I got there and went straight to the vending machine. I took my wallet out and got a couple of dollars. As I was getting a quarter, it feel out, I bend down to pick it up but a mysterious hand beat me too it. I looked up and it was Joshua. He smiled and handed me my quarter. "Thank you." I said not looking at him. He nodded his head. I put my money in and he was just on the side watching me. "You gotten so beautiful." "Thanks." The vending machine was going slow so I started hitting it and yelling at it to hurry up. A couple of people turned their heads to look at me. As the cheese-it's were about to fall it got jammed. "Are you serious?" As I let out a frustrated sigh "What ever I'll just stay hungry." As I murmured to myself. As I was about to head back for the room I felt Joshua's familiar hands grab my arm. "Not right no-" and I felt pairs of lips on mines. He went for a deeper kiss but I pushed him off. I looked him in the eyes for a good 3 seconds. I pulled my hand and started heading back for the room. As I was about to step in I heard Jason talking so I stopped to easedrop. "Yes, I love her mom. I know it's shocking but she's the one. I know it." "Well I'm happy, just promise me you won't break her heart." "I promise." As their conversation ended I went in. "Ms. Brown, the vending machine got jammed so I wasn't able to get the cheese-it's." "It's alright dear." I went next to Jason. "I'm going home to get food and change I'll come back later." I gave him a quick peck and got up. "That's how you kiss me? I know my moms here but that doesn't mean you kiss me wrong." I started giggling as I bent back down to give him another kiss. This time I went for a more longer and passionate kiss. As I let go Jason became greedy and went for a quick one. "That's how you do it." I laughed and started heading out I said my see you laters to them and left.
"I know, I'm a mess. Now give me that lecture of how karma is gonna kick me in my ass." As I chuckled to Rachel and Alexis. "I don't mind if I do." Alexis laughed. Our laughter became more quiet. Then Alexis said "I'm shocked your not crying." "I don't always have to cry." "Didn't you say you love him?" "Yeah?" "Well you don't, you would've been crying your eyes out if you really loved him." I chuckled a little realizing that. "I guess I'm done crying. I cried when he told me. I even cried at Kemar's house. So I guess now that were on good terms I don't really care." "Did you just say you were at Kemar's house?" Rachel asked me. "Yeah." "Kemar Jackson?" I nodded my head. "The one who broke your heart, the one who cheated on you?" I nodded my head again. "Yeah I know, I guess I'm kinda wrong for doing that." "You are! He broke your fücking heart! And you go back to him?! He wasn't the one who helped pick up the broken pieces. He wasn't the one who's hands were cut up picking up the pieces. It was me!" I stayed quiet. I didn't know what to say. I put my glass down and slipped on my shoes. I got up
From the coach and and headed for the door. "Thanks for talking to me." I forced on a smile. She didn't say anything so I went out.
"Meanwhile this nigga been putting his hands on me..." "I swear you guys don't know half of this industry...." "Let's do this dirty laundry, dirty laundry." I sang into the studios microphone. "Dirty laundry dirty laundry." As a tear fell down my face. "Fooled everybody excepts self, soaking in this hurt bathing in the dirt." As I was finishing the last line of my second verse. "This dirty laundry dirty laundry..... this dirty laundry this dirty laundry.." "When you soak up in these tears it never airs out. When you make pain look this good it never wears out.... Dirty laundry dirty...." As the I ended my song with the music. I went out the booth and into the room with the mixers and stuff. "That song was deep." Adam said. "I know. It can only get deep by experience." He nodded his head understanding. He looked up at his big computer and did a few touches to the sound and then clicked the play button. We listened to it together and bobbed our head slowly to the music. The song finished. "I like it. But I think we shouldn't put to many instruments I think we need just the beat for tempo and just put the G and D cord of the piano. And maybe a little bit of strings, like when I get to the chorus." I went over to the piano and did the cords as I sang the song. I liked how it sounded so I gave my assertive answer. He then recorded it and did all the little touches I requested. He replayed it and we were done. On July 1st the song will be released. We talked for a good 2 hours about life, relationship, future plans, music, goals, people and all. It's like Adam and I never run out of options when were talking. I said my goodbyes and left to go to the hospital again.
